Here we go...

[Casper_]

Hello, I have been reading this forum over the past couple of months and I have found it really helpful, it has made me realise how many people are struggling with fertility and how strong we can be when it comes to desperately wanting to be parents.

Our journey began in Aug18, since then we have found out that my husband's sperm cannot be used (diagnosed azoospermia) in Aug20 we have been told as a matter of fact that our only choices are IUI/IVF with a donor sperm, adoption or no children at all. It has been devastating, we had so much hope until that moment that maybe it could still happen naturally...

After consideration and grieving for the baby that would never have my husband's genes we have decided to purchase two sperm samples and try IUI, the first and last round happened in Dec20. I don't know if it is because it was a first time and everything felt overwhelming or why, but it didn't work. Me being me I really thought that it would work, surely we were due a break?! (But the sucess rates are only around 10-15% in my age group), although the clinic said it was around 20%, so I am not really sure to be honest. Needless to say we had the worst Christmas we ever had.

It was not meant to be, so we had Jan21 off and decided that in Feb21 we will try an IVF cycle instead. I am worried that because of covid our cycle could be abonded half way through, but at the same time we really don't want to be waiting anymore.

We have decided to go with a private clinic in London and they always have space and are accommodating but it definitely comes at a price.

I had my first scan on Friday and started Gonalf evening injections (my only comment would be that I was surprised I didn't feel anything, unlike with Menopur). I have a couple of scans next week (Wed and Fri).

Thank you for reading if you got this far!

And all the very best to all of you amazing and inspiring warriors x

[AllWeNeedIsluv]

👋🏼 lovely and welcome, im sorry you and your husband have had such a tough time. I just wanted to wish you all the best for this ivf cycle and really hope you get a break, sending lots of baby dust your way. 💗😘

[Casper_ in reply to AllWeNeedIsluv]

Thank you, I find that this can be such a lonely experience, we do not know anyone who has or is going through this and although all of our family and close friends know about our situation, they don't really know what to say most of the time. I read about your journey and I admire how you have coped with everything that life has thrown your way and how you have kept going. All the best to you.

[AllWeNeedIsluv in reply to Casper_]

Thank you I'm truly blessed!!

Yes most definitely it can be a lonely journey. This forum is a huge help the women on here totally get it and in a way it's like a virtual family. They really are so supportive. Whatever you want to know and arent sure about just post or even look through old posts your bound to get your answer. Again i wish you all the best and hope things work out with this cycle 💗😘