Home test all positive but 14dp5dt hcg bloods only 14

[AnnieMac123]

So upset this morning. Local gp called with my hCG results... They are only 14...

.she booked me for another test tomo just to check if any improvement but when I advised the clinic in Prague they have pretty much wrote it off and told me to expect lower results tomorrow and that they were sorry and tried to reassure me mayb next time it will work.

Can't believe I went from seeing such a strong positive test just days ago to be in on the floor crying my eyes out today. I feel like such an idiot for allowing myself to believe it was gonna work out when everything has been so against us these last 5years. I just wanna give up and run away! Can't even face work tomorrow so have taken 1 more day off but I need to get back and just slap on the fake smile as usual but am not sure I can this time.

Just seems extra cruel to get positive tests and then have it ripped away. Leason learnt there won't ever be a home test done again I will just hold out for bloods

[Cinderella5]

Im sorry to hear this Annie! It sounds like it could be a chemical pregnancy, Ive also had this and it is gutting. You're doing the right thing by taking a bit of time off, you need time to grieve. Its such a shitty thing to happen, having your happiness swiped away just like that. Massive hugs.xx

[AnnieMac123 in reply to Cinderella5]

Thank you. I just feel like such a disaster area... Can't have my own kids and now seems I can't even manage it with young healthy donor egg either....... Am guessing the clinic will just see it as bad luck but did they change or increase your medication if you tried again? Am just wondering if there's anything to be learnt about my body from such bad results

[Cinderella5 in reply to AnnieMac123]

Awww you're less of a disaster area than me and Im currently pregnant!! I had heaps of failures with my own and donor eggs. I eventually had an ERA to check for a more precise timing of how many days of progesterone I needed for my uterus to be receptive but I had loads of negatives before we even got a chemical. Im sure your clinic will have some ideas up their sleeve. The only thing I would check is if your progesterone levels at the point of transfer as I wasn't absorbing the pessaries as well as I should have been. I know it sounds like a bit of a get out but sometimes it genuinely is just bad luck!xx

[AnnieMac123 in reply to Cinderella5]

They never checked any of my levels b4 transfer just a simple scan to check lining thickness... I have been in progestogen since my 2nd surgery 2yrs ago so maybe they just assumed levels would be fine

[Cinderella5 in reply to AnnieMac123]

They may well be completely fine! We only suspected after I spontaneously lost our first pregnancy so we checked for future attempts to be sure and I had to up my meds.xx

[Cassie_56]

Oh Annie, it is really cruel and really unfair. So sorry. Definitely take time for yourself to grieve, you’ve been through so much xx

[Patches86]

I’m so sorry Annie, I can relate to having a positive test and then having it taken away a few days later. It’s heartbreaking and so unfair. It’s nothing you or your body did though. Look after yourself, sending lots of strength your way x

[Lisichka]

Oh Annie, I’m so sorry! It sounds like a chemical pregnancy. I’ve had two so know the feeling of being so happy to be ripped away like this. You will get through it, I promise. Take some time to process it, then come up with a plan for your next transfer. Sometimes it’s bad luck and sometimes you need to change things up. Look after yourself, big hugs xxx

[AnnieMac123 in reply to Lisichka]

Thank you.. Yeah slowly trying to get my head around it all.... Have gotten in contact with my surgeon to see if worth doing another lap to clear out what ever endometriosis has grown back since my last surgery. He had previously advised me that my endo was one of the worst he'd seen and wanted me get ivf within a month of last operation as her predicted it would be back within 3mts..but unfortunately covid took that out of my hands so its possible that if endo is back bad then its not helped implantation - I guess I won't ever get a 100% answer... Hope he replies, could only email as his office only taking voicemail and I was too upset to speak about things out Loud today. None of my family or friends even know I got to Prague.. We kept it to ourselves as didn't want people worrying about me travelling etc... Feel like that's kinda backfired on me now.. Almost feel maybe I was wrong not telling people and this is karma biting me for not being honest!

[Lisichka in reply to AnnieMac123]

You did what you thought was right at the time, don’t blame yourself for not telling people. We’ve been very private about our journey too. But yes, the downside is when negative things happen, it makes it hard to share.Definitely worth checking your endometriosis, it can have a big effect on implantation.

There are still many options available to you and many things you can try. It can take quite a few attempts to get it right. It’s a numbers game and for most people, it takes at least three tries (took us 5) xxx

[Linda84Co]

I had chemical pregnancy and honestly it hurts as much as a miscarriage, so cruel to see positive pregnancy test and then nothing... I’m thinking of you and sending you a big hug. ❤️

[Tywo]

Sending you lots of hugs and kisses don’t blame yourself it’s nothing you would have done. I had losses previously but I know there is light at the end of tunnel. Thinking about you ❤️❤️❤️