I can’t relax

[Orla9298]

I know that this is normal after multiple early miscarriages and failed ivfs, but I really can’t stop testing and it’s not helping me at all.

Our hcg tests were as follows:

Monday: 478

Wednesday: 640

Friday: 1250

So they have booked me a scan for next Friday. But I can’t stop doing first response test each morning and I’m in a panic that the line won’t get darker and I’m also not getting a “dye stealer” like EVERYONE seems to get with FRER where your control line gets lighter. It’s staying static with the test line. Has anyone else been a bad test addict like me and not had a dye stealer? 🤦🏽‍♀️

[Lowamh]

Stop testing! Throw them out. Destroy them first if you need to! With high levels you will get positive tests no matter what happens between now and Friday. You might not relax between now and then but you don’t need to torture yourself with tests each morning 😘

[KiboXX]

Yes, me! I had a draw full of frer tests at one point 🙈 In the end, I used the clear blue weeks indicator tests and told myself once I got to 3+ result I would stop testing and wait for my scan. It’s so hard but honestly the tests can’t tell you anything at this stage and you’ll only drive yourself mad. Just focus on tomorrow being one day closer to scan day ❤️ xxx

[Orla9298 in reply to KiboXX]

I think tomorrow should tip me over into 3+ weeks on a clearblue, but only just so maybe I’ll wait an extra day! It’s just freaking me out so badly that everyone else’s seem to get so dark that the control line slowly disappears?? 🤦🏽‍♀️

[Lowamh in reply to Orla9298]

This is good advice. Take one more test (on Monday) with a weeks indicator and then throw them all out!

[Picalilli99 in reply to Orla9298]

Bless you Orla. I ttotally get it’s impossible not to freak out. But try to remember what people post on here is not necessarily a true reflection of what EVERYONE experiences. I feel like those posts you mention tend to be from people not aware about the dye stealing and worrying there is something wrong with the test. There will be many many people I’m sure who don’t get it and don’t post. I know with past experiences and when there’s so much riding on it, it’s so difficult to not let your fears take over but try to not see it as facts. Things are looking good. If there’s any way of trying to distract yourself a little bit with other things (I know that probably feels impossible!) until your scan that will only help your stress levels I’m sure. But I just wanted to say hang on in there, I totally get it and it’s only because I’m not in it right now it’s easier to say! Big hugs lovely xxx

[KiboXX in reply to Orla9298]

I never had that happen for me and my beta numbers were good so don’t get too hung up on it! My two week old is currently sleeping on my lap so it doesn’t mean anything 😘 xx

[Ivfgotadream]

I never had a dye stealer and that’s with twins so I wouldn’t worry too much x

[Orla9298 in reply to Ivfgotadream]

Really? Did you do a FRER after being about 5 weeks?x

[Ivfgotadream in reply to Orla9298]

I stopped doing first responses just before 5 weeks as moved onto clearblue digitals as it’s easier to track if something might not be right with the weeks indicator tests x

[Hidden]

Oh lovely .. just wanted to send you some love. As Kibo said they dont say anything as you know. Your hcg is rising so thats a massive thing to hold on to. I couldnt stop myself last time so i bought the cheapies and actually never stopped testing. Didnt help the outcome. Never had a dye stealer too x so many factors can influence that line like diluted urine etc. you are pregnant today and its a good day. Is there anything you can do that makes you happy? Online shopping, benchwatching, cooking? Whatever it is do more of it and hopefully you can make time go faster with that 😘😘😘😘

[Cinderella5]

Awww its hellish isnt it! I was a bit better this time around as my hubby was almost gonna kill me.🤣🙈 However if you have a look at the tests on my positive test post....I pretty much had a dye stealer on 10dp5dt and my hCG was only 968 13dpt5dt which is lower than yours. So what I'm trying to say is lines mean bugger all as your hCG is higher than mine and you dont have a dye stealer. It's so hard not to freak out especially with having a shitty history but the lines arent making you feel better so maybe it is time to step away for a bit anyway? Oh and I didnt have a massive jump in between 2 of my hCG tests.xx

[Sunshine92]

I also never had a dye stealer and i’m currently 36 weeks pregnant! x

[Orla9298 in reply to Sunshine92]

Did you do any tests when you were past 5 weeks ish?xx

[Sunshine92 in reply to Orla9298]

Yep! Pretty much every other day until my scan with the clinic at 7 weeks 3 days, never had a dye stealer once xz

[AllWeNeedIsluv]

Iv done a frer past 5 weeks and it stayed static with control did clear blue and it was 3+ Left it at that. I know what you mean i wanted a dye stealer 2 it didn't happen. He's 2 tomorrow!! Hope yourv scan goes well lovely. 😘💗

[Orla9298 in reply to AllWeNeedIsluv]

Thank you! It’s so weird how it seems some people’s stay static yet some people get true crazy dye stealers!

I’m starting to feel a bit less crazy. My CB digi should tick to 3+ tomorrow or Monday so I should do that and then fully quit testing xx

[AllWeNeedIsluv in reply to Orla9298]

I know i was convinced it was over, but i think its when it doesn't get as dark as control maybe that's when it could not be developing. Your numbers look good too! Good luck with the clear blue hope you can relax once you've done that! X

[magda22]

Hey Orla, just catching up on your news. I have no idea what a dye stealer is, 😅 but hold tight. Sounds like you're doing the right things staying still-ish and if your hcg is rising so strongly thats very good. What a mad turn of events, but i guess that's nature. And how crap the clinic wasnt more supportive after everything. Loads of love, try to distract yourself watching some Netflix? Xx

[Peony85]

Hi Orla, I was also a daily tester from test day which for me was 9dp5dt. I have always had better luck with CB than FRER so I would do both each day just in case FRER was wonky, the CB for whatever reason was always much more reliable for me. Anyway, I tested daily including the CB weeks indicator every couple of days. I did get a dye stealer around 14dp5dt which is also when my CB went to 3+. It was sooner than I expected so I kept testing FRERs and the dye stealer never got lighter and actually the control line seemed to go darker again and completely freaked me out. I tested with CB 3+ again a few days later and that’s when I just decided I had to stop because the FRER not going more dye-stealer was just driving me mad. For whatever reason I think everyone has different reactions on the tests, some get dye stealers and some don’t but it’s not an exact science. Your HCG levels are great so I’d go with that and try to relax before your scan (easier said than done I know!) xx

[Orla9298 in reply to Peony85]

Thank you! That’s exactly what I was hoping for with my post to hear that more people had it like me!xxxx

[GiantPanda]

Hi Orla - no advice on the test obsession, but I'm just catching up and want to say a MASSIVE CONGRATULATIONS!!! That's such amazing news; I'm overjoyed for you. I hope in a small way this will bring you back to the positive aspect of knowing you are pregnant, and that being enough, even if just for a moment. Best of luck for your scan. Xxxx

[Orla9298 in reply to GiantPanda]

Thank you, just a rollercoaster! Fingers crossed. We are still planning our next surrogate transfer at the moment, as we will still go ahead next month if this doesn’t work out. It’s nice to feel we might be getting closer!xx

[precioce]

After you have been through so much it is so difficult to relax at all. I envy those people who breeze through pregnancy without the history! It all sounds very positive and having a ready though would agree that when you get the 3 weeks try and go cold Turkey on the testing. Really praying all is well with the scan. Sending hugs.xx