Sensitive 🌈👶🏼

[PurpleLove19]

Hi everyone,

The last time I was on here I had just found out I was pregnant and was feeling anxious so decided to step away from the forum. Truth is I have been checking in on you all. With all this COVID-19 and clinic closures- I just had to see how people were coping. I am happy to see that some clinics are re-opening and I wish each and every one of you reading this all the luck in the world for your upcoming cycle.

I haven’t attached a picture- purely because scan photos have haunted my husband and I for the last 3 years. But I am happy to announce that I am 12 +4 days pregnant and we are due November. We are still waiting screening tests but the scan went really well. (After all this wait- my husband wasn’t allowed in for my scan- Dam Virus.)

I am not going to moan about how rough I have felt during the 1st Trimester as I know many of you would kill for a bit of morning sickness but one thing I can say out loud is- the worry never leaves you. I thought that as soon as I saw two lines on a stick, I’d be fine, how wrong was I!

Each week leading up to your 12 week scan is a milestone- the time drags and then when you have your scan you have to wait for blood tests and then your 20week scan and so on.

I am trying to enjoy my little bump and taking each day as it comes. Worrying won’t change what is to be.

I really cannot believe we have a miracle on its way- like this happens to other people not us!

I hope that nobody finds this post upsetting- I currently have my bestest friend in the whole wide world struggling to conceive after 2 miscarriages. I never thought the shoe would be on the other foot where I had to be sensitive. It’s normally me feeling sensitive.

This journey has taught me to be a more empathetic and a mindful person. It’s also taught me to be happy at the little things in life and to feel blessed now I am pregnant.

A nurse said to me the other day “Did IVF work 1st time then?”

I replied “Yes- we are very lucky!”

Then I stopped and said “Well actually couples that conceive naturally are lucky so I don’t know why I’ve just said that but it’s how I feel.”

Something else I’ve embraced is sharing my journey with others- when people ask about my pregnancy, I am very open that we had ICSI/IVF and makes our story special. People are more interested to learn what happens in a cycle and I have enjoyed sharing our journey. I hope that one day I can help/support others in some way. I won’t forget what we have been through.

I know every couples story is different. Initially it was a male issue. Then as we dug deeper my body wasn’t exactly the most fertile either. When people ask now “who was the issue then” I reply with- “both of us, we both needed a little help.” My husband loves me for that I think. I feel I owe it to him because I said/thought some awful things to myself when I found out he couldn’t give me a baby. Truth is I wouldn’t want a baby with anyone else. The way he dotes on me, gets excited when my belly grows, looks after me when I’m feeling sick. We have been through so much and now we can breathe.

Believe your body is capable of creating a miracle- do what makes you happy and never give up.

Miracles happen when they are supposed to 🌈.

[Lots8788]

Lovely post and amazing news! congrats hun and all the best for rest of your pregnancy xx

[PurpleLove19 in reply to Lots8788]

Thank you hun 😘🌈

[ttcemmie]

Very happy for you! x

[Cinderella5]

Ahhhh Im so pleased you popped back with your good news....always good to hear stiff like this! Look after yourselves and roll on those weeks for you, all the best with the rest of your pregnancy.xxx

[KiboXX]

This is a beautiful post. Congratulations ♥️

[Hidden]

Congratulations such a big milestone to reach well done 👍🏻 I’m so happy to read this update the early weeks are terrifying. How sad your husband couldn’t attend the scan- hard for you both. I was such a wreck every scan don’t know how I would’ve coped without my hubby with me... I hope by your 20 week scan the rules are a bit more “relaxed” & your hubby can attend 🙂 As for your friends I’m sure you will know how to handle it best having been there yourself. Anyways all the best with your pregnancy ❤️xxx

[Itsalongjourney26]

A really lovely post ❤️❤️ Congratulations xx

[User20]

Lovely words!! So happy for you all the best for the rest of your pregnancy xx

[Khess124]

So glad to hear everything is going well for you ❤️ Been waiting for this update hope the rest of the pregnancy is smooth sailing and as worry free as possible 🙏🏻❤️

[Littlepeax]

What a wonderful inspirational post!! Huge congratulations to you both! You deserve all the happiness ♥️🥰💫♥️

[Hidden]

❤️❤️beautiful x take care of yourselves and thank you for the encouragement

[Cmc2020]

Amazing news congrats 💕💕xx

[Hidden]

What a lovely post and made me cry a little. I can resonate with you as both myself and my husband had some level of fertility issue, and we also got pregnant on our first try with IVF/PICSI and at 40 (me) and 41 (husband) the odds were so low. I am currently 11 weeks 1 day and have my NHS 12 week scan next Friday so feeling apprehensive and have already had 3 scans along the way.

Completely agree with the worry and I’m a natural worrier in life in general so god knows what will happen once my little one arrives.

All the best in your journey and thanks for sharing, I have found all positive stories useful as sometimes we focus too much on the negative which can’t be healthy for us x

[Rain415]

This was lovely, and was great to read. A lot of what you said really hit home with me and I hope you have a smooth sailing rest of the pregnancy. X

[Dinah_lady]

Such a lovely post. Thank you for sharing x x

[Kelz2020]

Huge congratulations. A lovely post to read and so well written. I’m currently 10+3 and have had three scans all fine. Awaiting 12 week scan which is booked and confirmed. You’re right the anxiety is something else. More so In lockdown when you’re climbing the walls. We pray all is well at the 12 week scan and tests come back all good too. Like you, it would also mean I’ve had ICSI success first time with one embryo put back. They say it only takes one after all. Keeping all fingers and toes crossed!

I think your story will give so many hope so thank you for popping on and sharing.

All the best for your onward journey xx

[Core]

Congratulations and thank you for the lovely message xx

[Hidden]

Yay great news!! 😘😘

[Bunnys123]

Congratulations and sending so much love for your journey xxxx

[Janop79]

I’ve just come across your post. I’m feeling really low at the moment at this made me smile. Such lovely words. So very happy for you. Good luck for the rest of the pregnancy . Enjoy every moment xxx