After I was delivered this devastating blow and obviously doing more and more research, to have that level at my age is truly devastating.
Most of the ladies on here seem to be 30s/40s and when they talk about struggling to conceive naturally or via IVF with higher levels of AMH my heart breaks and sinks.
I’ve been told that my situation is very rare. So therefore I feel there’s no one that I can relate to in terms of the impact on me at this young age. I’m at university, want a career, partner but now with this it’s like a death sentence.
I suppose what I’m saying is that everything I read here or other places is largely about couples trying and older couples. I haven’t even got up that stage and that’s part of my problem. The worry about when will I meet someone, when do I tell them about my situation, will they hang around? And then if all those obstacles are overcome, I start the awful situation that most of you ladies are in. I feel like I’m not even off the first base and if if I’m the future I have the next phase to go through.
I feel sad that I know deep down that sex will always be sex because in my head I will never have had any period of a relationship where I was unaware of my fertility problems and therefore could enjoy the loving side of it. Right from the word go with a serious partner all this will be hanging over me.
I know I always go on abit and feel sorry for myself but I’ve got no one that understands. All my friends are just focusing on their graduation (my final year will be disrupted with egg freezing treatment), building their careers, the excitement of meeting someone etc etc. My future from the word go revolves around will I ever have a baby.
Thank you for reading