Anxiety day before Gonal-F injections

[ttcemmie]

The last few days I have been so positive and upbeat and excited about this next round of IVF, and today I am just feeling tired and anxious and a bit down. Ugh I hate this rollercoaster. I guess I'm just feeling stressed and a lot of pressure (and exhausted), and want some love on here.

[HemBella]

It really is a rollercoaster ttcemmie. But you are strong and you can do it. And its amazing what an impact exhaustion can have too. This whole process is exhausting. Its nearly the weekend, take some time for self care, focus on relaxation and listening to what your body wants. Thats the most important thing right now - you xxx

[ttcemmie in reply to HemBella]

Thanks. Yes, just so tired and I think that's dragging me down. Really looking forward to the weekend! Thank you; I will listen to what my body and mind need!

[KiboXX]

It really is a rollercoaster and you’re allowed to have days where you don’t feel super peppy and positive! Hopefully once you get started on your Gonal shots, you’ll have something to focus on and that will help.

You’re only human so don’t be too hard on yourself. Be kind to yourself today, have treats, wallow if you want to and then tomorrow, the next steps begin! Big hugs xx

[ttcemmie in reply to KiboXX]

Thank you KiboXX. Hopefully will be back up tomorrow. Just having a hard day today.

[KiboXX in reply to ttcemmie]

It’s ok to have hard days 😘 xx

[Solly-44]

You have every right to feel all of those things. It’s one of the toughest things you will ever do, but you are doing it! Try to remember you are doing everything you can to work towards your goal.

You’ve got this lovely, just be kind to yourself. Sending hugs xx

[ttcemmie in reply to Solly-44]

Thank you. You're right - I'm doing everything I can. It's just overwhelming at times!

[Solly-44 in reply to ttcemmie]

Definitely, and everyone’s allowed down days too. Hope you feel better soon xx

[cggregory]

Sending so much love!! Whatever emotion you’re feeling about this process is 100% valid. You can’t be strong and positive all the time. But know that we are all here for you and that you will get through this 💪❤️

[ttcemmie in reply to cggregory]

Thanks for the love. It's nice to know that all emotions are valid and that you guys are here for me. xxxx

[Hidden]

Awww Emmie hunnie ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️You’re a beautiful human being, still human though so understandably feeling tired and low at times, especially through IVF...this process is a real kick-ass! But Gonal F is your friend 😃😉the needle is tiny and the pen is really practical to use- easy peasy you won’t feel it...BUT in the background your eggs will grow to become mature and strong 💪🏻 breathe in, breathe out hun we’re all in this together! YOU CAN DO IT 💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗sending lots of love, baby dust and strength 💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻✨✨✨✨✨✨✨💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋

[ttcemmie in reply to Hidden]

Thanks so much, Issy. I just wanted reassurance that I'm not being weak for being tired and upset. Thank you.

"Gonal F is my friend" lol. Yes! I do remember it being my "favourite" out of the needles. I can do this!

[Hidden in reply to ttcemmie]

Weak? Not even a bit. You’re an IVF warrior!!!!! There’s nothing stronger than accepting our low days, loving ourselves when we need to (because the way we love ourself is special) and go back on the saddle to purse our dreams. This is who you are dear Emmie! 💓

[ttcemmie in reply to Hidden]

Yay IVF warrior! Just sometimes wish it wasn't this hard, as I'm sure we all do.

[Italy300618]

It's amazing how emotions can turn 180 in literally a day! It's totally understandable to feel this way emmie, you might find tomorrow you will feel much stronger but just ride it out the best you can, you will do this and you are super strong ! Are you taking any time off work for your cycle to rest up a bit?

Definitely listen to your body and take each day as its comes, lots of love xx

[ttcemmie in reply to Italy300618]

Thanks lovely. It's crazy the swing in emotions! I am taking two weeks off but not til transfer. I also have half days for the scans and two days for egg collection, which all sounds like a lot of time, and it is, but doesn't help me today! I decided to work from home today and felt really guilty about it, but noone at work has asked me about it, so whatevs. 😊

[Italy300618 in reply to ttcemmie]

Good for you for working from at home today. Put yourself first! Sounds like a good amount of time off when it gets to egg collection and transfer but dont put too much pressure on yourself either in the lead up. Hope you're injections go well xx

[RhinoCat]

As the consultant told me when I said I was tired .... ‘that’ll be the worry’. I’m anxious too and I haven’t even had my down reg . I’d say you’re pretty normal to feel like this. Ya can’t feel positive all of the time 💐💖 remember to do big deep belly breathing to calm yourself again . Get the Gordon anxiety programme on the mindful app. Try your best to let it go as much as possible .

You are ready , the drugs are there, you’ve got this!

Sending hugs to ya as the wave of nervous fear falls away

Hugs

Rhinocat 💖💐

[ttcemmie in reply to RhinoCat]

Thanks RhinoCat. You're right, it's probably the worry. That and just the sheer amount of headspace this all takes up. IVF honestly moved from feeling like a part time job to a full time job. Just tired. I don't deal well with tired! Trying to cut myself some slack. x

[Hidden]

Hey lovely, this is soooo normal and to be expected!! Give yourself some TLC - sending you a massive hug.

If I was a betting woman I reckon you will feel 100 times better if you get to start stims tomorrow - you will feel like you are doing something positive towards this dream.

All will be good, try and keep busy and look after yourself. My new addiction is a jigsaw - bought a massive 1500 piece one and its really keeping my brain occupied xx

[ttcemmie in reply to Hidden]

Thanks Daisy. I think it's just the exhaustion - making everything really difficult today and yesterday. I am looking forward to starting the stims tomorrow; it is always good to be working towards it. There seems to be more pressure (on myself by myself) as this journey continues so I'm trying to be kind to myself on that front too. Thank you. xxx

[Cinderella5]

Its only to be expected, there is so much pressure on us to "perform". The fears start to creep in and it can be overwhelming along with the side effect of the drugs....the gift that keeps on giving! Go easy on yourself, you're doing grand even getting back on the horse!xx

[ttcemmie in reply to Cinderella5]

Thanks Cinders. I don't know how you keep at it. Every cycle just seems to get harder. 🙁 And there is a lot of pressure! Trying to be easy on myself. Thanks. x

[Hidden]

Loads of love to you ❤️ ❤️💞💞💞💞❤️💞❤️💞💞💞❤️😘❤️😘❤️❤️😘😘❤️

You are amazing and you've got this!

[ttcemmie in reply to Hidden]

Thank you. Just needed the love and reassurance today! x

[louisajane80]

You’re allowed down days. It’s perfectly normal - and the drugs I’m sure will only exaggerate your emotions even more. I’m due to start stims next week. It’s my second round too and I’ve been feeling so negative about it recently. Hoping when I start stimming things will turn around. We have to keep reminding ourselves we wouldn’t be going through this if we didn’t think it was going to work! Sending you some postitive vibes! Hang on in there x

[ttcemmie in reply to louisajane80]

Thanks lovely. Hope your up days come back soon too. I've just had a nap, which has made a slight difference, and I'm going to go have a shower, then lunch! An exciting day for sure, but necessary for me to be a bit kind to myself today. Just feels relentless this journey! Hanging on in there. Thank you for your kind words and positive vibes. Sending them right back too! xxx

[LisaBeatrix1980]

You’ve got this x