First Fresh Cycle BFN - Christmas gets harder each year

[Sunshine_4]

Title says it all, didn’t even make it to OTD as started bleeding before. We just put our Christmas tree up and I burst into tears, each year I think - next time we put the tree up and celebrate Christmas I will have a baby or I will be pregnant 😥

[londonrc]

Oh I’m so sorry Sunshine, it’s so hard doing a cycle around Xmas or ones birthday as it seems so much worse. I have been there and still might be again next week! It’s such a rollercoaster of emotions - your filled with so much hope and then it’s dashed. Be kind to yourself. Big hugs to you, and a huge glass of wine! Xxxx

[Sunshine_4 in reply to londonrc]

Thank you, I had my transfer the day before my birthday and I was so happy and optimistic. I wish you so much luck with your cycle xxxx

[londonrc in reply to Sunshine_4]

Thank you- look after yourself and if you have to cancel some arrangements as you can’t face them - then do - just tell people you are ill of you haven’t told them the truth - just do what you need to do and look after yourself and your partner. Then in 2020 hopefully you will be able to make your next plan. Xx

[ttcemmie]

Sorry to hear this, Sunshine. It's an especially difficult time of year as, I agree, it's like a marker. Another Christmas. Allow yourself to wallow in this bad news if you need, and do whatever you need for yourself to get through this. Lots of love.

[Sunshine_4 in reply to ttcemmie]

Thank you it is such a hard time of year, especially being around nieces and nephews, I am looking forward to the new year x

[Lots8788]

Sorry to hear that Sunshine. Big hugs to you and be kind to yourself. I know what you mean about Christmas too and it just seems to highlight that we are not there just yet for another year. Take it easy xx you're not alone

[Sunshine_4 in reply to Lots8788]

Thank you, hopefully next year 😘 x

[Kiedy84]

Xmas is extremely difficult time, be kind to yourself as you are saying goodbye to this year xxx

[Sunshine_4 in reply to Kiedy84]

Thank you for your kind words x

[KA2121]

Oh sunshine, I'm so so sorry I’m in the same situation, heavy bleeding the day before OTD 😢 first Fresh cycle, so heartbreaking.

Sending all my love and hugs xxx

[Sunshine_4 in reply to KA2121]

It’s just awful isn’t it, that feeling of dread when you see you are bleeding. I also feel upset that they didn’t really warn me about that, I thought the progesterone would have held it off. I’m so sorry you are going through this too x

[KA2121 in reply to Sunshine_4]

Yeah I agree, I wasn’t warned either and thought the progesterone would hold it off, I guess we found out the hard way, it’s such a hard thing to go through def hit me harder than I expected and my OH too, so you have any frozen? Xx

[Sunshine_4 in reply to KA2121]

It’s so hard, even though you know the chances of success are low you still get your hopes up. No we don’t have any frozen, do you? xx

[Skippy1982]

I could have written this myself hun! It’s exactly how I feel and Christmas seems to highlight how much time has gone by and we feel like we are not getting anywhere. Stay strong and keep believing 💕💪🏻xx

[Sunshine_4 in reply to Skippy1982]

Yes exactly, it’s so difficult. Hopefully the new year will be kind to us all x

[Hidden]

I am so sorry to hear this! Try to relax over Xmas and pamper yourself. Wishing you lots of baby dust for the coming year!!! X

[Sunshine_4 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you, here’s hoping 2020 will be better x

[Hidden in reply to Sunshine_4]

Yes, stay positive!!! X