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Soo back to reality where I started woke up from a beautiful dream.... I have lost my rainbow 🌈 at 11+2 days... I don’t know what to do I just want to hide from this reality.. I’ve been expecting this, because I’ve been thinking the worst all the way along Can’t help but wonder if my anxiety has brought this on. People talk about the power of positive thinking, law of attraction, etc. And all I’ve been thinking of during the pregnancy is that I may lose it, and now I have lost my baby

I can’t believe this is happening to us ..I thought this was our rainbow. I thought we deserved some happiness. I thought this was our gift. Why don’t we get to take a baby home?

I m sorry for a depressing long status . I guess this is what meant to happen and I still believe everything happens for a reason and I m sure god has a best plan for me ...

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TRYING2016

im so so sorry to hear this, how heartbreaking. I hope you have all the love you need around you at this hurting time ♥️ xxxx

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Millbanks

I’m so sorry. Sending lots of love 💖

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Niki_B

Hi hun I'm so sorry this has happened 😥 I could have wrote this post myself...I too miscarried at 11+2 in May 😓 and like you from day 1 I thought I was going to miscarry...and I did. And like you I blamed myself and my negative thoughts thinking I probably made it happen...I still think that 3 months on. It's so cruel and unfair isnt it. Especially after seeing a good scan at 7 weeks nice heartbeat, high hcg from the start, no bleeding or spotting whatsoever, nauseous daily from 5 weeks...and that's it, just snatched away just like that. My heart breaks for you I know exactly what your going through 💔 there is nothing anyone can do or say to take the pain away, but we are here for you. And I hope you have some close family and friends by your side. Please PM me if you need to chat or anything. Thinking of you and sending you loads of hugs. Take care of yourself. Again I'm so sorry 😥💔💖 xxx

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Kitcat12

😞 I'm so so sorry lovely, it's terribly sad and so unfair x

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Gueritarubia

So sorry for you. Big hug

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everhopeful83

I’m so so sorry to read this 😞 sending you strength at this very sad time ❤️❤️xx

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Core

This is so so sad and so unfair, please don’t blame yourself if it was as easy as just controlling your thoughts things would be so much simpler xx

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Noah1981

Completely gutted for you I hope you have lots of love and support around you take care xxxx

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Solly-44

I’m so sorry lovely. Please don’t blame yourself, none of this is your fault. Sending you strength and hugs xx

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Cinderella5

I'm so gutted for you both! It's just awful to have your hope's and dreams swiped away! So sorry for your loss.xxx

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Tugsgirl

It’s absolutely not your fault. I suffered from anxiety with my rainbow baby pregnancy after three previous miscarriages and although anxiety isn’t great when you’re pregnant, it doesn’t cause miscarriages. I’m sorry for your loss xx

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Celloheggy

Sending you lots of love xxx

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Dreamingofbaby

So sorry for ur loss it is heart breaking. I lost mine around this time earlier this year. Know it one those things and u not to blame. I hope it will happen for u but take time for u at mo and go easy on u. Take time to grieve. Big hugs. Xxx

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Poppy16

Devastated for you. Please try not to blame yourself. It is beyond your control. You didn't do this. Thinking about you at this very upsetting time and praying for you. Take one day at a time. Really feel for you right now and trust that you get all the support that you need. Take care. Xo

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Lowamh

I'm so sorry, there are no words x

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Ourbaby1

Thank you soo much ladies 🥰really appreciate ur kind words.. I know I will have to pick myself up and keep going..

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Violet5451

I'm so sorry for your loss lovely. I know what people say about positive thinking but please don't blame yourself. I thought the whole way through my pregnancy that something was going to go wrong. I was convinced even when I was being induced that something was going to happen. It didn't and if negative thoughts had anything to do with it... It definately would have. This is nothing to do with anything that you have thought or worried about. It's horrible and such bad luck and it's not fair. But you had no power over it. Sending you lots of love xxx so sorry for your loss again xxx

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aamiller405

I am so very sorry to read this.. Sending you love xox

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Kyell2

This is awful news. I’m so sorry. Sending you lots of hugs xx

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Melodys99

I'm so very sorry for your loss. This most definitely is not your fault Xx

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Livinginhope2019

I’m so sorry, sending you big hugs x

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precioce

So sorry for your loss. You are in my thoughts and prayers.xx

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Hanbee33

Am so sorry to read this. Thinking of you x x

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Debrakay1704

So sorry to hear this. Please take care. Xx ❤️

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pj2232019

I too believe everything happens for a reason, but it doesn’t make the pain any better. Give me a BFN any day of the week. I had a successful pregnancy with IVF and it didn’t even occur to me that I could have a MC, how stupid was I. I have also had to continually face “at least you have a child, you should be grateful”. I wanna say “fu*k off” of course I’m grateful, but does that mean i can’t hurt or be upset. The world of IVF is a strange place I have concluded. Your negative thoughts as you put it, did not cause the loss of your baby, please don’t torture yourself, because if positive thinking was the key player, then I would still be pregnant, as I said I didn’t even think of MC. I’m so sorry for your loss, try be kind to yourself, take each day bit by bit and do what you need to do to get through. Take care

in reply topj2232019

Of course you are thankful you have a child but that's not the point. The point is that shattered dreams really hurt when you have really set your heart on something and believe you will have it and no you don't and it's so unfair!

It's really upsetting though when one day you are pregnant looking forward to the new baby and the next no you aren't as its all been cruelly snatched away from you and shattered dreams are absolutely devastating when you think you are getting something and then no you are not and it's all so bloody cruel isn't it?

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Hollibob

So sorry to read this...heartbreaking x

I echo what others have said it is not your fault please don’t feel it is.

I fell with my daughter( after suffering a chemical pregnancy) I suffered anxiety throughout the entire pregnancy even when I was in labour I was worried something would go wrong but it didn’t.my CP I was certain we’d have our baby but lost our baby instead .I had son from another relationship but it didn’t make any of this any easier.

I hope you have lots of support so sorry for your loss xxx

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