Hello , I am a mother to a baby angel, Maria; she left when she was 2 days old. After getting pregnant IVF-ICSI. we discovered that I have cervix incompetency. We tried every single possible way to keep my baby alive; we Failed.
Ever since we are TTC with IVF - ICSI; all unsuccessful.
Now I am 5dp3dt; I still did not POAS; and yes, neither did I shower since transfer date. I feel kind of sad.
This is the longest most anxious period one has to deal with. Anyone here also in the 2ww?
Yes me! 3dp5dt!
So sorry to hear about you baby girl, heartbreaking and yet you have found the strength to go on and try again. You are stronger than you know and you can do this! Good luck, I hope this is your time xx
Thank you very much for these words. I was just thinking “what if”!!
How do you feel? We are exactly same page!!! Horrible, right?
Baby dusts to you! May this be our time, hugs!
Yes I think we are the same dates!
I’m comparing everything to last time when I felt the implantation about 3dpt but that was a fresh round and my embryo split into twins so I’m not sure the 2 cycles really compare. I knew I was pregnant from about 6dpt but unfortunately was not meant to be. I flit from..this definitely hasn’t worked to this could have worked?!
I have had acupuncture this time which I think is keeping me a little calmer but I’m not sure it will change the outcome 🤷♀️ Just waiting and trying to pass the time and hope our little embryos have decided to stick around! Xx
I feel you. Yesterday and today I woke up scared. Stick baby stick. We want them so bad that we are so afraid of hearing negative words after 2 weeks of impatient waiting.
Sorry about your first pregnancy;
I too am comparing with my pregnancy with mariah, but it is different this time because with mariah I had implantation spotting so I called the dr and he was joyful.
This time and all the other times no spotting.
Why us aprilmama? This is what I think about non stop. And then I say; maybe I am not meant to have kids; when Mariah died, I went to an orphanage and asked about taking care of a young girl with no parents.
Not adoption. Just visits and outings and financial stuff. I Thought this is for mariah. But this girl instead she gives me life.
But I wanted to try again, and here we are all of us.
I never did acupuncture, it scares me; you are strong. But I hear it has good effects.
Try soft music. Amazing feeling of tranquility.
What a lovely thing to do for this little girl, I’m sure she appreciates you love and kindness.
We are one of the lucky ones having a 5 year old daughter already, I felt at the time she was a miracle and miracles don’t come twice so we started with IVF last year with little awareness of the ups and downs that lay ahead of us. Today I’m having negative thoughts about this time but I guess we just need to wait it out x
Yes me too! Im only 1dp5dt..
Don't know how I will survive till OTD. I went back to work today hoping that this will distract me but Nooooooo I can't think of anything else.
Best of luck and lots of baby dust 🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞🌈🌈🌈🌈🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗
Lucky you, my husband is crazy about this. I am bed rest since transfer day.
He also took the days off work. He is doing everything at home. A hopeless princess case!! I wish us all BFPs and cute little babies ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️😊😊😊🙏🙏🙏🙏
Oyyy that's nice. You have a keeper there 🤗🤗🤗
I asked hubby last night what he would like for dinner hoping he will say take away haha but nope he wanted soup AND some pasta hahahhaha but said he will do the cleaning so lets hope he will dot hat hahaa xxx
Yayy best of luck for all of us and i hope May will be our month 🤞🤞🤞🤞❤❤❤🌈🌈🌈🌈🤗🤗🤗🤗
Oh and did you actually cook? Great for you to be able to stand on both feet and be functional. I just can’t get out of bed. Is it anxiety to loose these embies?? 😅🤓
Please rest, maybe stay bed rest for the week end, your implantation window is today and tomorrow ♥️♥️
I am 3dp 5dt I've been really happy how I've coped with it tbh but it's def going so slow, I am trying to be positive but the thought that it might not work always creeps back in its crazy, sorry to hear about your baby girl fingers crossed everything goes well for you x
Yes Bella me too; trying to cope yet this is the most difficult thing.
I’m spending so much time on the internet buying stuff, it keeps me distracted. But it is driving my husband crazy 😅😅😅😅; so Him and I are going nuts!!
Baby dusts to all of us.
So so sorry to hear this news
... Really very tough time u went through with... Wish u lots of luck and blessings this time ... Be happy be positive....
Im so sorry for your loss! You are incredibly brave to try again, I wish you all the luck in the world!xx
Thank you very much Cinderella! Baby dusts to all of us ♥️
Yasmoun, I’m in a similar position my ivf baby died after I gave birth to her at 24 weeks and 6 days. She lived the worst 23 days whilst the docs tried to save her. We are going to wait for the results of the placenta and try again. Your story gives me strength. Please feel free to message me if you want to talk. Sometimes it’s good to speak to those who’ve gone through the same x
I feel you!! My baby died at 29 weeks. She was beautiful, and tall!! I thought oh my god how did she fit in my belly?! I saw her in my dreams after she passed away; a very beautiful young woman, she was with grand father (who is also dead), they were walking on a very green field and I asked who is this beautiful young lady, a voice said , that’s your daughter! I woke up in tears. I miss her.
I know you miss your baby too.
Don’t lose hope, when will you start your IVF?
Hopefully September x
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