Dreading hospital appointments

Anyone else at the stage of dreading their appointments? I actually just sat and cried last night saying I really didn't want to go to my appointment today. The last three appointments have all been bad news and my gut instinct has always been right so far. I'm going up myself today to see if the cyst on my ovary has shrunk so I can start my frozen round but I'm really not feeling confident. Just hoping to muddle through the day so I can come home from work later and hide from the world 😔 xx

[LegoBatgirl]

I'm sorry hun, that sounds like you've had a lot of bad news and that you are basing your worries on your lived experience which is totally normal. I'm hoping for the best for you and glad that you reached out to the forum. There's a lot of people that support you here and some days it's your right to hide if you want to. Hopefully you can put on Netflix, have whatever snack cheers you up and relax x

[Hidden in reply to LegoBatgirl]

Thank you so much for replying, it really means a lot just now. Going to get my big girl pants on and get through today lol. Hopefully I'll be smiling later on, if not Netflix, wine and chocolate in bed sounds so good right now! xxx

[LegoBatgirl in reply to Hidden]

I think you deserve to treat yourself. Every day you fight so hard and everyone here knows what it's like and respects that. Everyone has down days and trying to suppress them just drags you down in the long run, I'm really proud of you for being brave and sharing your journey. If you ever want to talk I'm here x

[Lou7744]

Aww... sorry to read that you’re feeling so down 🙁 it’s a tough ole journey, but you’ll get there!

How about some retail therapy afterwards?! Always takes my mind off IVF stuff 😂💕 xx

[DisneyJL]

Hope you get some good news today - this whole journey is gruelling & testing, & you’re perfectly within your right to feel pessimistic. Sometimes you need to have days like this in order to re-group & pick yourself back up.

Of course, there is the chance that the cyst may be the same, or not shrunk enough, but just try to remember that your body will decide when it’s ready. It needs to be at its optimum for the best chance of success, so your body will let you know when it’s your time honey. Good luck for your appointment 🤞🏼🍀

[kirstyblue]

Oh no sounds like you’ve had a really tough time so far. I hope everything goes okay today. Please keep us posted xx

[Hidden]

Thank you all so much for your kind words and for really just being there, you've really boosted my confidence and mood so much. Getting ready to head up shortly so will let you know how it goes. I hope you all have a good Friday xxx

[Caza2009]

Just wanted to send you some love 💕 this journey is so tough at times - but remember just how strong you are even being on it 💪🏼

Fingers crossed all goes well at your appointment.

Sending you loads of virtual hugs 🤗 xxxxxxxxx

[RidleyNL]

Yes, I feel you lovely. We’ve had obstacles almost every step of the way in the last year of ivf and before that with scans of my fibroids, surgeries etc. I totally get the dread, and the anger and frustration you feel afterwards especially if they don’t give you answers or solutions. I find I have to hide from the world ALL the time to preserve my sanity. How can it be that there is still so little known about women’s gynaecological health? HOW?! Here’s hoping you get good news today, and failing that, you at least come out armed with some useful information and a plan forward. The waiting between appointments is a killer too. Sending love 💕 x

[ama4]

Stay strong huni. This is all a test, its up to us how we deal with it...we will have good days and bad days along the way but we are all here for you. Maybe you should plan something nice for the weekend to try and take your mind off it a bit xxx

[GiantPanda]

You can do this LauraM! 👊Xx

[Hidden]

You are all bloody amazing! So I'm back at work and I'm really, really happy the scan showed absolutely no trace of the cyst, I've had my one and only injection and I'm booked in to go back in a fortnight for my scan to make sure all is nice and quiet so I can start my tablets. ET will be the middle of September, slightly later than planned but right now I could not care less! The nurse told me to expect headaches, tiredness and mood swings, so pretty much what I'm like now but only worse (poor hubby!)

Thank you again for all your messages, it really made a difference this morning, I would honestly be so lost without you all xxx

[GiantPanda]

Only just saw your post - really happy you had good news. Lovely to read such a positive message. Good luck for ET!! Xx

[Hidden in reply to GiantPanda]

Morning thank you so much. It's such a rollercoaster isn't it? How are you getting on? AF finally arrived I hope? xxx

[GiantPanda]

*sigh* day 39 now. I emailed my clinic for advice yesterday and waiting for a reply. I'm definitely stuck on a loopy part of the rollercoaster! X

[Hidden in reply to GiantPanda]

Aw that's just bollocks isn't it Let me know what the clinic say, hopefully they come up with something that can get things moving for you xxx