I am really unhappy with the results and wondering if it would be different if I chose a different clinic? I have to admit that I hadn’t done enough research before I started as my GP says, “you can choose any private provider. Just use google to search London independent hospital.” I didn’t consider any clinic that didn’t have the exact word independent hospital on their webpage.
I started off really well and after all stimulation, I produced 20 eggs and 13 fertilised. On the day 3, 3 of them have 7 cells, and 4 have 6 cells, 4 have 5 cells. I think I made a really bad decision on day 3 as I decided to go for blastocyst development. I almost fainted when I heard that I only had 1 blastocyst by day 5. I am really unhappy with this results as I had thought 1/3 would usually develop into blastocyst. Anyway it’s already done.
I know I am silly but I have been thinking that the hospital may have dropped my embryos on the floor. Maybe all of them are dead but they transferred a dead one into my body to give me some hope for 2 weeks. They told me to be positive as the one currently in my body is a grade 1 embryo. I don’t know what it means but sounds good. In fact I don’t really believe them. I know these are very silly thoughts, but I just cannot help myself thinking like that. Those are not the only the silly thoughts I have, I don’t want to bore you with too much details.
I know I am very negative as I have already started preparation to start again and was looking at different clinics on HEFA. Oh, please do not tell me to be positive as I have still got a blastocyst in my body. I simply am not able to. I really regret that I went for a day 5 transfer.
My the question now is:
would it be different if the same procedure was done in a different clinic? Do they use the same technology and same incubator and same chemical culture to develop the embryos? Could you recommend any good ones in London, preferably in the city? I don’t have much annual leave left for travelling to hospital. I hope all the scans can be done during the lunch time.
Sorry, it’s a very long post. I have lost my skill to talk precisely.