** Updated third 2ww and I'm sure it's over again 😢

So this is our third tww wait and it's all over again for us. Me and my dh did our crying yesterday and discussed our next steps so we are fully prepared for test day on Thursday.

I am 3 days late and yesterday morning whilst wiping I had a medium amount of pinkish/reddish mucus which is the way my cycles start and how my last two ivf cycles have ended. It then stops and the next day I start full af. So today I'm going to be sat waiting for it. The only difference is last night I wiped and there was a lot of brown mucus mixed with the crinone but don't want to build my hopes up. Sorry if to much information.

I'm having lots of cramping so this morning I tested 8dp5dt and it was a BFN which I completely expected. Why is this journey so difficult I just feel like each time I loose a little bit of me in the process. So many questions going through our heads.

Now to drag myself out of bed and try and appear normal at work 😢

**update: af has arrived this morning so our third cycle has officially ended just to call the clinic tomorrow and update them.

Feel completely numb and not sure where to turn next but am sure with time I will make them decisions.

Thank you again to everyone for your well wishes xx

[Patty74]

I had a bleed 9dp5dt it was implantation brown blood it stopped day 10 so tested and got a faint line. Just rest and retest. If the bleeding isn't too bad it might not be over I cried all day thinking it was sending positive vibes your way xxx

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Thank you xx

[Tugsgirl]

Really hoping that it isn’t all over again for you. Please keep us posted xx

[Hidden in reply to Tugsgirl]

Thank you hope your ok have just seen your post xx

[Tugsgirl in reply to Hidden]

I’m struggling and feeling sorry for myself but I’ll be ok. No one can be strong all the time can they? Thinking of you xx

[Scarlett13]

It's very early to test and the blood isn't yet heavy - wait and see what today and tomorrow bring and I wish you didn't have to go to work. Keep us posted. I'm keeping my hope up for you. Xxx

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I'm glad I had work as it kept me distracted and my boss and the other 3 people in my office all know so are very supportive and allow me to take time off as when I need it with no questioning xx

[Hidden]

I had period pain when I got my positive test- it is impossible to know whether it’s pms or early pregnancy as most women don’t get symptoms till they’ve missed a period. I miscarried.

If you are out I’d look into further investigations before trying again.

This journey is so difficult and I’m sorry you’ve had such a hard time. It does take it out of you- I know I’m not the same person I was before this. Do things for you - you matter too. I refuse to put my life on hold anymore - I book holidays, I completed a teaching assistant course. You deserve to be happy 😃 and this doesn’t define you 😊 it’s not your fault it’s cruel and unfair situation to be in.

All the best really hope you get a BFP on test day and it’s your time xoxo

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Thank you your exactly right now to focus on me. We will be looking at further investigations as will be private now so will push for them. Hope your ok and your op goes well xx

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Thank you and all the best to you xoxo

[Hidden]

Thinking of you and hoping for a positive outcome for you xxxx hugs

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Thank you xx

[AlexL80]

Hi Katrina

I'm new to this forum, and had my first BFN (via blood test) yesterday. That was day 12 after my first FET - which was my first transfer at all (I had to have a freeze-all after egg retrieval due to OHSS). Sorry if I'm not getting the terminology and acronyms right (don't know where to find the emojis either); until now I've avoided forums because they scared me, but it was the not working that scared me and now it's happened I'm hoping to find some comfort from knowing others have been through this and come out the other side.

Anyway, I'm so sorry to hear that you've been through this twice already - and I can't imagine how bad you must be feeling facing the prospect of a third time. Everyone keeps telling me to be positive - deep down I think I knew it hadn't worked, but had almost convinced myself that it had thanks to all the advice on positive thinking (which didn't work anyway). I really hope this isn't the end of your third try, and that you do end up getting the longed for BFP. And, if not, I hope you find the clarity to decide what is right for you in terms of next steps and the strength to follow through on that decision.

Take care

Alex

[Hidden in reply to AlexL80]

I'm very sorry to hear about your bfn and all the trouble you had with your first cycle. This journey is very difficult but I will find the strength with time to carry on. This forum is amazing always here if you want to talk xx

[-noodles-]

thinking of you & hoping it’s implantation. sending all the positive vibes ✨✨✨

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Thank you xx

[Cinderella5]

Really hoping that's no the case! Thinking of you both!xx

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Thank you xx

[JULIETJAM]

Thinking of you both and hoping it was implantation x

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Thank you xx

[Ash2016]

I hope it's not bad news for you guys. Keeping my 🤞 for Thursday x

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Thank you xx

[Dunla]

Oh I am so sorry you and your husband have been so upset. Is there any chance there’s still hope for a positive outcome? If the blood isn’t bright red or a full flow? Fingers crossed for you xx

[Smang]

Praying for you and sending all positive vibes your way xx

[Hidden]

Oh no I’m so sorry I really hoped it was your time. Take as much time as you need then re group when emotions are less raw. xoxo