Today I had my first appointment with the fertility clinic. It was very exciting. The bad thing is that I had to go alone. My husband and I no longer live together. We had an argument and he left. Yes he was cheating me, it was not just my paranoia. I just wanted to be sure to face it. I feel bad about that, but relieved.
My date was already made for today, so I said to myself, why not go? I want a baby with or without him. They showed me the choices of sperm donors and I'm very excited. In two days I will have a scan to see my tubes again.
I feel like I've improved a little. Sometimes I feel a little lonely. My house is very big and there are only my pets and me for now. I like to think about the fact that I can fill it with the laughter of a child. That fills my heart.
I have gone to therapy. To keep my mind busy I have been taking care of the three horses we have. It's a lot of work, but it keeps me active.
I feel that everything can improve. I'm so excited.
I will accept any advice regarding the following appointments and what I should do.
A hug to all