Feeling like I’m in Limbo! 😢

[Hope85]

Hey ladies! Sorry just need to rant!

Lost my babies just over 5 weeks ago now! No sign of AF which I’m not surprised as I was 16w5days gone when I lost them. But I just want it to come already so i can move on.

Had an appointment at the clinic & they said once we have had the autopsy results & they give us the all clear then we can try FET. Our appointment for the results is mid December so not long away (I keep telling myself)

I hear of people having to wait months for AF to arrive after a late miscarriage I’m hoping this isn’t going to happen to me.

Think trying again will help us heal a little bit.

Thanks for reading! Xxx

[Tugsgirl]

I have no advice, I’m waiting on my Af too but I just want to wish you luck and hope it comes for you soon xx

[Daxi16]

Gosh this sounds incredibly hard hope I am so sorry for what you have gone through. Sending lots of love hope and thoughts your way xxx

[Shan123]

Hey I am so sorry for your loss 😭 I can feel the pain what you went through😢

I also had FET on 28th September last week I had the blood test done n I also did home pregnancy test at home which was positive and I couldn't believe on my eyes but I waited for the blood test result that was also positive.

But all of sudden Saturday evening I spotted some blood and had lower abdominal pain so I called ambulance they took me to A&E when I got there I started to bleed heavily 😭 I was so heart broken 😭 when I told the doctor who was attending me she said it seems like you are having a miscarriage and then she said you might not be. She took my blood test n urine sample to check and then one of the gaenacologyst came in and she did the internal examination she said it doesn't look like you are having a miscarriage as the inside of womb is closed I was like really? 😳 started praying that nothing goes wrong to my baby as I was 2 weeks and 3 days pregnant 🤰 too early to tell how many babies I was carrying as I had 2 FET. It was my second cycle of IVF. But anyway since Saturday I was admitted in hospital and I was confused until yesterday morning whether I am still pregnant or not? They did the first scan on Sunday where they couldn't see the baby as it was early pregnancy so she said we'll do a second scan after 48 hours, which was due on Tuesday morning so I was like okay and kept my hopes up that everything goes well. So from Saturday till Tuesday they did couple of blood tests and took urine samples and it was still showing my pregnancy but then Monday evening I got a call from lab and the nurse told me that my blood test level is dropping down so seems like you are having a miscarriage I was so heart broken but I was still praying. Anyway Tuesday morning I had a scan where she declared that I had a miscarriage and she said she'll give me the tablets to clear it from inside but she also said that with those tablets I will be in so much pain so I refused to take the tablets and told her that I want it to clear out naturally as I can't take this pain how am I gonna cop up with that pain so I refused to take the tablets. I stayed in hospital due to really bad pain in my lower abdominal.

Anyway After the scan the doctors decided to send me home with some pain killers. So in the afternoon they discharged me.

Moral of sharing my story was that these doctors confused me sooo much that one was saying I am still pregnant and one was saying I had a miscarriage all these days I've stayed in hospital I was not clearly told that I had a miscarriage. One doctor saying something and the other saying something else😳 I felt like that these doctors don't discuss anything with each other as there wasn't one or two doctors attending me there were couple of doctors who attended me during the time I stayed in hospital. Plus they couldn't tell the reason why I had a miscarriage?????

I had miscarriage in March 2017 but the doctors were unable to tell me why I had the miscarriage. It was only 8 days after the embryos were transferred.

These doctors should at least tell us the reason of miscarriage.

Now I have to wait another 2 months to recover and mostly likely my 3rd cycle will start in December or January and I only have one Frozen Embryo left😢 if I fail the 3rd cycle of IVF then I will have to pay the costs of IVF 😭😭 I don't know what I am gonna do. But when I found out I had a miscarriage I felt like committing suicide. As I have nothing left behind 😭😭 but thank God I've controlled myself but honestly I am so heart broken. That I am crying most of the times 😭😭😭😭 I don't wanna meet anyone. I just wanna lock my self up in a room n cry cry cry so no one can stop me from crying 😭 I feel I have lost everything😭

My husband is giving up on these long waited hospital appointments but I am not giving up because I know not today not tomorrow or maybe not day after tomorrow but one day God will bless me with baby 😊 I have my positive hopes up👍🏻 so ladies please don't give up and make yourself strong enough😘

[Hidden in reply to Shan123]

You are a very brave girl.my best wishes for you.i am going to start my 1st IVF in December.

[Shan123 in reply to Hidden]

sohely all the best Hun for your first cycle 😘