Post BFN gluttony! 🍰☕️🍩🥂🍔

[Bibble-2016]

So I'd rather have morning sickness but second best I'll take over indulgence nausea. After weeks/months of living like Gwyneth Paltrow I've gone all out at Malmaison afternoon tea - mini burger, cake after cake after cake, scones with clotted cream, prosecco, a whole pot of full caffeine tea AND a cappuccino to boot! Screw you infertility! 😉

[Tugsgirl]

Sorry for your bfn. They're very very difficult and upsetting. I hate to see women on here being so hard on themselves (doing a Gwyneth as you say) and still be unsuccessful, I really don't think it's worth it. I was really really good on my first round (not Gwyneth good, but good for me) and I was miserable the whole time and got a bfn too! You indulge. You deserve it xx

[Bibble-2016 in reply to Tugsgirl]

Thank you. Although I'm gutted about the bfn for the first time in 2 years I actually feel a little bit free and like my old self is returning. It's very early days and I'm fully expecting some ups and downs in my mood but for now I'm going to try to enjoy what I've got. Good luck to you on your 2ww xxx

[Tugsgirl in reply to Bibble-2016]

Thank you. Next time, if there's going to be a next time, please don't be so strict on yourself. Take care xx

[Bibble-2016 in reply to Tugsgirl]

There probably will be a next time but until then I'm going to take all this pressure off myself. Not like it's got me anywhere! Xx

[Shamrock16]

Bibble-2016 i am so very sorry to hear about your bfn.

I have to say I had a giggle at your living like Gwyneth Paltrow - she must be so unhappy!! Glad you had a big treat day!!! Good for you, you deserve it.

Take good care and enjoy seeing those glimmers of your old self again. xxx

[Bibble-2016 in reply to Shamrock16]

Thank you! Infertility just breaks you down over time. I feel a bit liberated for the first time in 2 years just letting go xx

[Loopielu]

Sorry for your BFN. I admit I did the same after mine at the start of June but with A LOT more alcohol involved, with a side of gluten, dairy and caffeine too. I'd been 'Gwyenth' (LOVE this term for pre-IVF prep, I shall use it from now on..!!) for six months by that point and I just needed to stick a middle finger up at infertility and feel like a normal (more than slightly squiffy) woman again. It feels so much better to just let go doesn't it?!? xx

[Bibble-2016 in reply to Loopielu]

Oh my god yes, you don't realise how much your life has been taken over by trying to conceive. In a weird way this bfn has liberated me, even if just briefly (I'm expecting a mood dip anytime soon). The middle finger is most definitely up! 🖕🏼 Xx

[Hidden]

So incredibly sorry about the BFN. We punish ourselves with this Gwyneth way of life for months on end -it's so dull and doesn't always guarantee success - but we all try what we can. I'm sure diet is little to do with it really but we get this crazy mindset..

I love that you did Malmaison afternoon tea - OMG the cakes there are just amaze balls.

Loving your attitude. You sound unbelievably strong which will help you decide on the next steps but have an IVF break and enjoy enjoy enjoy these cream teas and cakes and all yumminess.

Loving that you call it Gwyneth living.. UGH.. I used to be a member of GOOP but I complained and left after that massive crap she was talking about vaginal douching.. silly cow.. lol..

I think we all need one big Fertility Network Afternoon Tea!!

All the best and hope you manage to stay strong.. and we here for you xxx

[Bibble-2016 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you! I don't feel so strong this morning but I guess it will be ups and downs for a while. It helps so much being supported on here. Xx

[Hidden]

I'm so sorry to hear about your BFN 😥

However on the flip side of your story I have to say I'm very proud of you for your feast of sorts!! The only thing I probably would have added to the fully caffeinated coffee would have been a snaffle of Baileys! Yum!! 😘😉 Your allowed to indulge after living a barren life of clean eating and green teas!! I certainly hope that you enjoyed it? 😘😘

[Bibble-2016 in reply to Hidden]

I did really enjoy it. I'd forgotten what it was like to not have this restriction hanging over me. Can't say I'll be doing it all the time. My poor body must be thinking what on earth is happening to me!! X

[Hidden in reply to Bibble-2016]

Previous two cycles I was so strict, almost prescriptive about what I should eat it made me miserable!

This cycle I've just eaten what I feel like that and a dose of CBA always helps! If it benefits my emotional health that's better for me in my book, don't feel bad for an emotional binge every now and again. If that's your way of managing (also mine) then everything in moderation! ❤️❤️ Hope you feel brighter soon xx

[emiraven62]

I find this wonderful. Sorry for your BFN, having to deal with them sucks. The third time I received mine I had a crisis and I called my sister crying. She has a bakery and her way of consoling me for my infertility was bringing me a basket of different breads. I was supposed to share it with my husband, because it was so much bread, but I was so upset that when my sister left I ate it all by myself ... It was not a good idea LOL. Now after reading this I want to do the same. I have not received a good amount of candy for a long time because I was thinking about my problems.

I really congratulate you and hope that you can continue to enjoy this occasionally. A hug! Xx

[Bibble-2016 in reply to emiraven62]

Thank you. Sounds like you have a good sister! 😊 Xx