One week to go...

[emu2016]

One week to go...

1 week; 1 scan; 8 injections; and 24 tablets.

I'm still waiting for the drug related irrational hormones to kick in. Ive been injecting with buserelin since April 6th and while I've been a bit teary, that's it! I was expecting to have an excuse for losing the plot over my husbands socks being left on the bedroom floor or the butter being left out of the fridge!

My last cycle was a short protocol. I had no idea how long a long protocol went on for... it's relentless! You long protocol ladies rock!

It dawned on me yesterday that I'm starting to protect myself. More than ever.

Things I've done because it won't work include:

1: Decided on a £280 dress from Coast for an awards dinner in the summer. Shoes negotiable.

2: Booked an extra night in a hotel at end of 2ww to cheer self up.

3: Arranged a cocktail session with some friends.

4: Planned my pre-theatre drinks at Shakespeare's Globe in the summer.

5: Bought gin and tonic ice lollies from Aldi. £2.99 for 6. Last time it didn't work I bought myself a £40 bottle of gin. This will also be a refreshing alternative...

6: Concluded to my husband that I'm ok. That I'm ok if it doesn't work. I'll probably be a little sad. But it doesn't always work and I'd be so lucky to have it work at this stage.

I've now wrapped myself up with excitement for my summer if it doesn't work that I've made myself a bit sad if I don't get these things. What is wrong with me?!

Warning ladies: these drugs don't have to make you a stroppy grumpy cow. They can just make you plain weird.

Happy Sunday all. x

[Jaky76]

Morning my dear.. Oh you do make me laugh 😁... I did 3 long protocols so get where you coming from.... Lovely list.... I planned loads of concerts and days out this year whilst going through last treatment thinking well if it dosnt work then have nice events to keep me happy... And it has worked and so hopefully will be going to alot of events with a big belly.... And I hope the same for you.... Fingers crossed your cycle successful and those lolly pops stay in the freezer untouched! Happy Sunday xx

[emu2016 in reply to Jaky76]

Omg! I can do them with a big belly!!!! I Jane even thought that! x

[LauraGU]

I love the attitude you've taken to this. I feel like I've pressed pause on my entire life with this so reading this is so refreshing xxx

[emu2016 in reply to LauraGU]

The only thing we did different this time with regards to life on hold was to inject out of the house so we could still be out or away. I feel much calmer. It's hard work pausing your life. It's like limbo or no mans land... x

[LauraGU in reply to emu2016]

Well I wish you the best of luck xxx

[emu2016 in reply to LauraGU]

And you! Hope your journey is going good x

[Jaky76]

Well I spent 4 rounds of ivf not planning much just in case... And this round I did it so different and the outcome was so different.. And hope same goes for you ladies... Lots of love and luck 🤞 xxxx

[emu2016 in reply to Jaky76]

Everything is crossed! x

[Georgina78]

Haha emu, this made me laugh! You sound just like me, on these meds I've always expected to be a crazed loon snapping & ranting but instead I just end up a weeping snotty one where even an advert sets me off!

We also plan stuff to look forward to after every cycle, in case it doesn't work..the past 3 we've always gone out and had a lovely meal with as much alcohol as we want then booked a trip for the following weeks. It really helps to have stuff you enjoy and will help you feel like yourself again doesn't it!

Long protocol does suck indeed! I'm on day 4 of stims so hoping my EC (assuming we get that far) will be in a week or so, then the craziness of the 2ww can start, which makes me worse than any drugs ever do 😳

Lots of luck to you xx

[emu2016 in reply to Georgina78]

I'm so happy I posted this!!! I'm starting to feel normal because you're all weird too! 😜

My ET *should* be next Thursday... so with a big smile on my face I look forward to seeing which one of us goes bat shit crazy first... and how quickly we plunge through a box of tissues as our tears and snot dribble off our chin. *high five!* xx

[Georgina78 in reply to emu2016]

Yay we can all be weirdos together! 😝 Oh I've already gone through a box of tissues ha! xx

[emu2016 in reply to Georgina78]

I don't expect anything less now!

[WeeMrsH]

It's our wedding anniversary the day after our OTD- so we've booked a posh meal to which I will drive if pregnant, and if not it will be taxis and as much alcohol as we can manage. The next day I have a concert with my 26 year old cousins- I'll stress my nut if pregnant but it'll be good fun either way. We are going south to see family end of May (long drive so *hoping* I can't go due to pregnancy nausea as it's a really long drive!) and I have another concert in June (just after what would be 7 week viability scan, eek)!! We also have a fab cruise booked for Sept 😃

It was important to us that we don't come out the other side of this with a bad result, thinking "what now".

I'm finally feeling calm, think the hormonal madness has settled. Less tiredness, no headaches for 3 days. Hoping to cruise into EC (hehe) x

[emu2016 in reply to WeeMrsH]

This gives me hope... you're a little ahead of me... so I've got normality to come! My turn to be Nelly! Hope you're good lady xx

[Hidden]

Happy Sunday lovely!!

Emu2016, you have literally made me laugh out loud! Firstly, gin and tonic lolly's?! Holy moly I'm heading to Aldi!!

To be honest having a meltdown over butter being left out of the fridge and toilet seats being left up, I feel is perfectly acceptable in the best of circumstances, with or without medication! 😂

I am doing long protocol for the next cycle soon (my fridge is bulging with the drugs!) not quite looking forward to the menopausal symptoms I've been promised but hey ho we can't have it all!!

There is nothing wrong with looking forward to your summer and hopefully it will be virgin cocktails in summer whilst wearing your beautiful dress, we all have ways to protect our hearts, it's a blooming hard going through this, you do what you have to to get by xxx

The very best with your cycle sweetie, keep that lovely sense of fun!! I always enjoy your posts!!

[emu2016 in reply to Hidden]

DollyDaydream... Aldi opens in 50 minutes! 😜

Glad you enjoy my posts. I'm actually thinking of blogging some of them if I find the courage to be so public.

I think I seem to have forgotten that I can still enjoy all those things if it does or doesn't work...just with a variation of circumstance in them. (Except for the lollies!)

Ah, I missed my bulging fridge this time round! Tonnes of good luck to you for your cycle... I hope to be reading crazy thoughts from you too!

I'm off to work out why my other halfs trousers are left as if he's stood out of them at the bottom of the stairs. Tsk! x

[Tara123]

This post made me laugh 😁 u have a unique way of looking at this stressful process and I like it 🖒 I'm on the long protocol and I have been one big moody crying mess I think because I looked at all the different side effects of the injection low and behold I have them all lol...(story of my life ) I did think at one point if it didn't work then I was going to get a 2 seater convertible for the summer instead of a 4 door incase I got pregnant 😊 xx

[emu2016 in reply to Tara123]

Maybe I should read the side effects! I have had some headaches - I wouldn't want to give the impression I got away free! Loving your style with the convertible! I think failed ivf gives everyone the licence to have a mid-life crisis - no matter how old they are... 🤣 X

[Tugsgirl]

What a lovely positive post! xx

[Tugsgirl in reply to Tugsgirl]

You can't put your life on hold! X

[emu2016 in reply to Tugsgirl]

Awww thanks Tugs. It's people being honest like you that keeps me grounded xx

[Hidden]

Lol Emma you do make me laugh.

I have acutally arranged so much and have so many things coming up I am actually worrying about how I am going to fit the IVF in now 😂😂

All yor plans sound lovely, im sure you will be doing them all as a mummy to be.xx

[emu2016 in reply to Hidden]

Glad I seem to be bringing smiles to people's faces as well as my own! Clearly if I have to watch my sister in law eat my ice lollies I will be a very happy bunny! Big hugs, hope you're having a lovely weekend - fitting everything in! You don't have long! x

[TTCs]

Ah best of luck. I hope you get to do the things on your list with a growing baby bump xx

[emu2016 in reply to TTCs]

Me tooooooooo! x