Hello ladies! I have not written in 3 months as things were really up in the air and my husband and I were faced with some major decisions. I have never stopped reading the posts on here as you are all so compassionate and supportive of each other and seeing some fabulous BFP's lately has really made me smile.
I have been in counselling since November last year, as at the time the NHS signed me off, I sank to an all time low of crying everyday, having anxiety attacks and struggling to cope. The therapist has proved wonderful and I have made steady progress. She is not a fertility specialist by any means, but just having an objective ear has made a huge difference.
Anyhow, here is my update. After looking into local IVF clinics, we decided against having treatment here in the UK and after contacting 10 international clinics, chose one. We had to get all our testing redone and this has taken about 6 weeks. We had our first consultation with the Consultant 3.5 weeks ago.
The upshot is that we have booked a date (24th May) and selected a donor. I believe I will start with meds in March... I almost cannot believe that this is finally happening. I know that there are no guarantees in this life and that the treatment may fail, but I cannot contain the overwhelming sense of hope and excitement that is starting to take hold.
I will let you know how I get on, but we are hoping for smooth sailing and the chance of fulfilling a dream.