Well after illness stopped play last month, af has decided to put in a slightly early appearance today and despite hopes that a miracle had happened to prevent the need for another ivf, it seems we shall be starting round 2 tomorrow with a baseline scan and straight into antagonist protocol.
After a few tears this morning, a walk with the dog and a chat to my mam has straightened my head out and I'm now filled with renewed hope and excitement for what this chapter may bring - let's get this show on the road - whose with me??
I hope everyone else tackling this journey, wherever you are, will be blessed with the strength and courage to face whatever comes and granted the resulting miracle you deserve!
Big love to one and all xxx
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I am hoping that your miracle is stil waiting to happen this round. Wishing you all the luck and looking forward to following your journey. Sending positive vibes and prayers your way xx
We are currently in limbo land. After being referred to the fertility clinic from original hospital. I then was contacted to say my blood test for FSH was too old and needed an up to date one. Went to hospital the next day only to be told I needed to go on day 3 of cycle... I was on day 7 😤. However, as they had failed to inform me of this on the phone, they took the test and I received a letter 2 days letter saying it was successful for funding. Heard nothing since ( 2.5 weeks ago) but had a letter from my G.P asking me to book a telephone appointment . Sadly I have got to wait until the 15th for that, so no further really. Was hoping a miracle may happen before my 40th birthday tomorrow but sadly not. Xx
It sounds like you've been through a really frustrating time, but hopefully youre able to enjoy celebrating this special day secure in the knowledge that the doctors are finally going to help you and this could be the year where all your dreams come true!
Now have fun, eat cake and drink something fizzy before the next chapter of bumps, nursing and such begins. Tehe Xx 😊
I feel ok about this second cycle. I have had a good 3/4 month break, so had time to forget about it slightly, especially with Christmas.
Starting to feel more anxious this week as I know it all starts imminently and I guess first time around you don't know what to expect and I think I preferred that. We didn't get any frozen embies, so starting all over again. 😔
Good luck with your next cycle when you're ready. Xx
I think that having a few months between cycles is important to help us deal with our emotions and prepare for the next round.
It's a funny feeling going in knowing what to expect isn't it? In one way it's a bit less nerve wracking, in another it's really scary because we know what we need to achieve at each hurdle and will naturally compare it to our last round and those we've read about now we know what to look for!
I'm nervous about my follie count this time. I had 9 last time, 5 fertilised and went to day 5 blastocysts but only 1 was good enough quality to use and none were good enough to freeze which I was shocked about because I'm 33.
This time I've researched how to improve egg quality and quantity and have made so many changes:
I had 3 nights out involving alcohol after the miscarriage last November but otherwise have not had alcohol since last July. I previously used a nicotine free vape after quitting smoking 2.5 years ago but quit the vape last summer. I've been taking DHEA, Co-q10 ubiquinol and a bunch of other supplements, changed my diet, and changed all my toiletries and household products for chemical free ones. Have also been having accupuncture.
After doing all that I really hope my eggs are better and I have more this time.
I'm just concerned that as I had quincy last month it may have affected my eggs as I was unable to swallow my supplements or eat well so went from 5 days of sipping lucozade only to soup and custard as they were soft to get down and when I was able to eat again I didn't return to my healthy diet so the whole month of Jan was a write off.
Fingers crossed though, the other changes I've made will help matters!
I hope your second cycle brings you all you wish for xx
Well done for all the lifestyle changes you made. Sounds like you are doing everything possible. I have been drinking during these past three months as I think it is hard enough for us all when we are going through treatment, so I feel in between it is good to let off steam. We managed to get away and it has helped me relax. I'm fairly healthy during the week anyway with a good diet, exercise (when I can motivate myself 😬) and only allow myself some alcohol at the weekends. Once I'm on the cycle I don't drink at all and for the first part of the cycle I concentrate on getting fit.
I have previously had acupuncture and I'm going to have during this next cycle too.
I'm the same age as you and I got 9 mature eggs at EC but only 3 fertilised due to DH sample being so poor. All 3 made it to blastocyst and we had two put back. Unfortunately our remaining one wasn't good enough to freeze. 😔
I'm sure with all the changes you have made your next cycle will be great. Wishing you lots of luck. Xx
I fully agree with the drinking in between to alleviate stress of cycling which was my method pre miscarriage, but the zita west info my Accupuncturist gave me said to abstain, my partner doesn't drink and thought my cutting out my weekend wine might help and after being so devastated last time I thought I'd give it a bash. Funny thing is that now I've started the drugs I could kill for a sauvignon blanc... Mmm. Lol.
It sounds like you're pretty healthy and on the ball! I'm rubbish with exercise and need a boot up the bum!
It's good to know that people of similar ages have similar experiences. I too was sad we didn't have any embies to freeze but it seems that only around 25% of people do, so I don't think we should beat ourselves up.
It's crazy though, that when young and single casual remarks are made like "never mind, I can always freeze my eggs..." little do we know of the realities!
I think fertility ought to be part of sex ed in schools just to raise awareness of more than just how to avoid pregnancy!
I hope we both have success next time around lovely xx
Ha ha, it's always the way that when you can't have something you crave it. You've done really well to abstain and I know it would probably be better for me, but my last cycle actually went really well, the only major flaw was DH sample and the BFN was just one of those things. I've gone into this cycle the same, so hopefully it will be straight forward again.
I just think it is crazy that we spend our teenage years and 20s (for some) trying not to get pregnant, and then as soon as you want it to happen it doesn't 🙄😔
You are definitely giving this cycle the very best chance and I have everything crossed for you. Let's hope it's second time lucky for us both. Take care of yourself and feel free to message for a chat or a moan. Xx
We are starting our 3rd cycle of IVF at end of March. I was so excited and positive last night after we got the treatment plan, but this morning now feeling terribly overwhelmed. Period is due too so that is probably adding to my emotions :).
Yes I know what you mean MrsH, we went for our baseline scan today and my heart was banging with fears that we might not have enough follies, then the nurse reminded me that this isn't even the follie scan! Lol.😂. It's hard to keep up with the protocol let alone the ever changing emotions isn't it! We'll get through this though hun. As Annie Lennox once said "the only way is up"... que 80s dance round the loving room... now that's better! 😂 xx
Aww hon absolutely that made me smile!! I went for a good walk on my lunch break to clear my head so that's helped a bit. Need to give myself a shake and put it into perspective - we don't start for a while so worry about it all then! 😂
I'm starting some CBT soon to give me a wee hand to manage things.
How did the baseline scan go? All good to move forward to stims? xx
Glad to hear you're smiling hon. Need to pepper our days with smiles and the belief will follow!
Yes, walking is a bit of a saviour at tough moments isn't it! Brings a bit of clarity and inner calm.
Though you're not starting for a while its hard not to think or worry. Despite being able to apply logic to life in general, this is a massive deal that we never expect to face - we wouldn't be human if we didn't worry.
I was told once to allow myself a set amount of time to think about my problem and then make myself stop so it didn't become all consuming... might help but would take a hell of a lot of dicipline! Tehe.
Glad you're getting some counselling soon. I am too. I start on the 15th and am really looking forward to it.
The scan was fine thanks hon. First injection done amd I'm glad to be back on it as it were Xx 😊
Good luck with the 2nd cycle! You have a right attitude! Lots of positive vibes from here xxx
We have our first appointment with the clinic next week, and I'm not sure how many test we need to re-take and if there is some new tests that they want to do. But really hoping to start the cycle #3 as soon as possible.
And I have felt very positive the begin of Feb so I hope it means something even though I'm also a bit scared about my positivity 😂 If this is just my some weird protection mechanism against what all is ahead 😳
Aw, good luck with your appointment next week hon. I hope they can start you soon and your feeling of positivity remains.
Hopefully the positive feeling is a sign that this is your time and that positivity will support you til your bundle of positivity is placed into your arms... and that's a lot of positives for one sentence! Tehe xx
All the very best for round 2 Pookymama and really hoping this is your time. I'm also on round 2, currently in the 2ww and slowly driving myself bonkers but trying really hard to keep positive. Wishing you lots of love and babydust 🍀🌈 xx
Hi Cheshirekit, and thank you for your lovely message.
The 2ww is a Hellish ordeal - I remember being mildly... ok, fully mental last time, so much so I saved my annual leave for this rounds 2ww to be mental at home instead.😂
How're you feeling other than the prerequisite "bonkers" hun? I hope you're doing well physically.
Sending you massive positive vibes a potentially a collection of comedy dvds - may help! Tehe.
Luck and love to you hon. I look forward to following your journey xx
Thanks lovely 😊I'm feeling fine physically, just a few little twinges which I've decided to think are a positive sign of my embies getting settled into their new home (no idea if this is true but its what I'm telling myself!). I've also taken time off work so I can take it easy and avoid work stress. My purse has taken a bit of a battering though... on Tuesday I did some gentle walking around Cheshire Oaks and today I'm doing gentle walking at the Trafford Centre! 😆 Keeping everything crossed for all of us that this is our time xxx
Hi there, we're 10 days into our 2nd cycle. I'm a bit less hopeful this time around but trying to keep the faith. Let's hope this year is our year ☺ xx
Hi helsroo, are you 10 days into down regging or stimming? As I'm on a short protocol I'm straight into stimming so may catch up with those already half way through regging.
It's a funny place the old second cycle isn't it? We have prior knowledge which they say is power, but we also know how it feels when it doesn't work so I guess we become more measured rather than wide - eyed optimists?
Don't know about you but I'm experiencing a range of emotions. Am feeling calmer right now and a little excited... hoping to keep this up!
I hope your trying to keep the faith actually fills you with that positive energy and it remains with you throughout.
Big luck and love to you chicka. I'm looking forward to seeing how things go for you xx
10 days into down-regging; stimming starts on Monday, as long as the baseline scan goes well.
2nd cycle is a very strange place to be in, you're absolutely right. I'm almost not really thinking about the hoped-for end result, just getting on with doing my injections and coping with the emotional and physical effects. I daren't get excited yet - it feels as if there's still too far to go. If Monday's scan goes well I might start getting a bit excited.
Loads of luck and love to you too - keep me posted on how you get on! xx
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