So I'm new to this site, signed up because I really need to relieve some stress, as much as my husband and my family and friends try, its hard for them to understand how it feels and the daily emotional struggle us ladies face. Its a long story as to how I got to where I am now, It start in my early teenage years, I always suffered with extremely painful and heavy periods up until I had the HPV injection in high school after that my periods just stopped. After a year with them being absent, so around 15 years old, I went to the doctors as I was worried, and I was told, by the only female doctor I have ever seen, that she didn't know why I wanted them back as I was too young to have children. Of course, at that age no I did not want two children, but I felt ashamed being concerned about my body, had I known then what I know now I would have pushed for things to be investigated. So anyway skip to the future, got married moved into our own home and needed just that one more thing to complete our family. Just one big issue. STILL NO AUNT FLO! So, I went to my doctors who did a few tests and everything came back fine, ,I was referent to an NHS assisted conception unit, and after many tests they decided that, although my hormone levels were okay. that I had PCOS due to a lot of small cysts on both of my ovaries and I also was not ovulating. So the consultant started me off on 100mg of clomid, this made no difference, no follicles increased in size, or not enough to notice anyway so that cycle was cancelled. On to cycle 2, 150mg, again absolutely nothing happened, but at least I didn't have my hopes up as much as the first round! I also tried to take metformin but had terrible side effects and just couldn't bare to take it anymore. So was given the go ahead to start the process of inducing ovulation through injection (not ivf level) I decided to have a holiday before it started, and after finding out that the doctors think i am sensitive to gluten I have gone gluten free and it has lifted my hopes after finding out that women with pcos are more likely to have some level of intolerance to gluten and it can also affect fertility! So i decided to wait just a little longer to start my injections. it as been nearly 4 weeks now since i went gluten free, no more bloating and pain and i have so much more energy. 7 days ago i started with a bloody mucus type discharge that still hasn't gone away, i phoned the hospital Monday and told them what was happening and I am now booked in for a scan tomorrow. That's my long rant for now. Ive been trying to find someone in a similar situation that has some good news or just someone to talk to that understands. I feel like I am being torn in half. Should i feel hopeful and optimistic and risk being knocked down again or do I not get my hopes up and risk convincing myself that it wont happen and in turn jeapordizing myself! So lost right now, I know I'm not as far into fertiligt as a lot of ladies on here but after nearly three years I'm starting to struggle in my own head. Thank you and best wishes to you all.