Today has been emotional, stressful and yet positive.. We lost our beautiful boy at 36 weeks 4 months ago.. Today we went for Embryo transfer using our last embryo on a natural cycle. I had pre and post acupuncture A 6bb embryo transferred fully hatched! The embryologist said it looked lovely and did very well to survive the thaw as once hatched they are more delicate. Acupuncture very relaxing they played zita west cd! Made a big difference to my anxiety levels and although feeling crampy feel relaxed and more positive. So here goes the madness of the TWW! Hope I keep sane! Praying this is Harrison's brother or sister, thought about him the whole time and touched my necklace with his footprint on throughout the transfer. A tiny white feather fell out of the sky today whilst I was walking the dog this am, never had that happen to me before.. I think it was my little boy, I took the feather into the transfer room too! Hubby had it in his pocket! I really hope this is a much needed rainbow and ray of light following a very dark time.
Lou X
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Really hope you get your rainbow baby. So sorry for you that is a truly awful thing to happen. You must be such a strong person to get through this. Wishing you all the luck in the world xx
OMG this post made me cry 😢 My heat breaks for your little boy 💔 You've done amazing to put yourself back together enough to try again. Really believe in subtle signs and I'm sure that was a message from your boy and he's looking over you. 👼
Thank you ladies xx it's a really tough journey but i am trying really hard to crawl my way to being a mummy again and doing little Harrison proud.. My life should be soooo different right now but I must try to keep going to get my life into a more positive place because I simply can't carry on feeling despairing anymore.. Me and my hubby really need some hope! We have a counselling appt on Tuesday and the timing is good, we need help talking it through together 💔 I hope we all get to achieve our dreams because the journey we go through is heartbreaking 💔👼 🙏🙏🙏🙏 we all get there one day... Thank u again for your kind words they do help xx
Hi Lou I'm so sorry to read about your baby boy, I think you're amazing to have the strength to go again so soon. Wishing you lots of luck, I really hope you find your rainbow x x x
Thank you ladies finding the 2ww really tough, now I am terrified I have done this too soon and of does not work I am going to come crashing down.. I just hate that I am having to go through all this again on top of losing my little boy and our future as a family.. I am consumed with thoughts of being a mum again constantly and I think it's because I am a mummy with no baby, it's like my body and mind yearns for Harrison and is searching for the baby to be mummy to... My life is not my own anymore and it's mentally exhausting.. We have counselling on Tuesday which I am really glad about because I am struggling today..
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Hope needed - grade 3AC embryo for frozen transfer 
FET done 
Grade 1 embryo 🎉
FET - Embryo on board! Stressing as usual 😩
