Hi, I haven't posted for a while. I've been in such a funny place--we had a failed fresh transfer in November, hobbled through to Christmas feeling so down about it all. January was still hard but work helped me stay busy. I went to a very dear friend's wedding where I had to be brave as it meant spending the weekend with 2 close friends who are both pregnant and a third who had not long had her second baby. I got through it, but boy was it tough! As February came, I started coming through the other side, preparing to have an FET, signing the consent forms and getting ready. Waiting for my period to start in March and then boom, Corona Virus landed. And everything cancelled. Life is all so uncertain right now. I brushed the Fertility stuff to the side as I was overwhelmed with Corona Virus updates. Then, yesterday I had one of those moments whilst decorating one of our bedrooms (the one that would be for a baby if we ever have one). Will it happen to me? Who knows.... Then today, my oldest friend ever messages me. She got married on December 29th. And what do I see? A scan picture. I closed the message instantly. I know what this means. I should be used to it by now. How do I deal with it? I find this so hard, the conflict of wanting to be so happy for her and at the same time wanting to sob my heart out and scream and shout 'why can't it be me?'.
What do you guys do when you have these announcements? Xx
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Miscarriage at 11 weeks
So so desperate for a baby, I think I’m going crazy! What’s your journey been like so far? Do you feel the same way!?
heterotopic pregnancy
Finally seems real
