hi, we started trying 2 years ago, after a year of monthly pregnancy tests and fertility tests and false expectations accentuated by irregular cycle the GP gave me the all clear on my side, my husband finally decides to get tested and it came out as very low sperm count meaning very little chance to conceive naturally. it was devastating and it took me a long time to grieve and accept the situation, can t talk to anyone as it is very personal and also unless you are in the same process you have no idea how depressing it is, the hubby was of no help too what i got from him was he s only doing this because i want kids, i feel so isolated and alone. i keep trying to think positive, that at least there is a chance, i go to the gym daily and manage to pack my week ends with activities but sadness and depression just keep crawling back. since we started trying 7 friends have fallen pregnant and i keep hearing at every gathering that i m next and it s only me left now without mentioning all the pressure from the family at almost each phone call.
we started the process at leatherhead hospital, it took ages for the referral letter to come through then after the appointment we had to wait another 6 months for the next one, the urologist appointment was a nightmare but once we got that we had the tests and the follow up done privately to speed thing up he told us to expect ICSI. today was the second appointment at the fertility clinic with the virology tests and another hormone test as it has to be in the last 6 months. now we were told that the referral to kingston hospital could take up to 6 months again and that we re quite lucky because of the fertility lottery.
everything is so slow that it s consuming and draining every last bit of energy and we haven t even started the real deal yet