HI Guys, it's my first time commenting on this site I didn't realize how many people suffered with his awful diease. I can't believe what's happening to me. I've always suffered bad with my monthlys. Five years ago I collapsed with severe abdominal pain and haemorrhaging. It scarred me quite frankly. They did a lap investigative procedure and my surgeon who is a lovely man said I had the worst pelvic area he had ever seen. All my organs are matted together with endo and are stuck on the left hand side of my body. My Bowel, Bladder and womb are welded together and twisted. My monthlys are so painful, heavy and I feel rotten. I've had treatement with Prostap for six months and been on Cerezette bu the bleeding keeps on going. I don't know how many times I've been taken into hospital because I just can bear the pain and collapsed. The pain in my stomach and down my legs and around my back is awful. To top everything off I have numerous falicular cysts which keep bursting every month and another large cyst on my right ovary. i also have fibroids which are 3 cms x 4 cms and 4 cms by 6.8cms. My surgeon keeps mentioning having a hysto and I am reluctant to do this. Stupid I know as my quality of life is rubbish, it's affect work, home and relationships. All I have ever wanted is to be a mum but being pregnant carries soo many terrible risks for me so they say. I really don't know what to do. My head and heart are contstantly arguing and I just feel so tired and drained. I wish I could shut everything out and let my mind rest from it all. This is all knew to me, these feelings. I don't understand how I've got this, does anyone really know? Any advice girls I feel like I am going mad.