I’ve been offered exactly what I want to be doing......BUT
I’ve been saying to my employer what I want for ages, turning other jobs down and now they said they would offer it me if I did another job at the same time which is very stressful and physically and mentally very demanding. Automatically because they offered it me I was so excited about the prospect thinking F*ck Endo! I’ll be fine....I always do this and then get distressed because I can’t do things as well as I used to or want to be able to.
Now I’m actually thinking about it and whether it’s worth it? The anxiety, the sleepless nights, the demanding work, the moving away for a few months from my fiancé just for a job? That I know that i wouldn’t be able to do, i’d Get upset and just want to go home? I’d miss counselling, i’d Have to ask for days off to get zoladex injections.
Even more so, what do I tell my employer? You offered me a job I really wanted and said I’m very interested but I’m going to have to say no?! Why? Oh because of my chronic illness......I’m self employed.....they’d never hire me again!!
Need to seriously consider what i am doing?!
Anyone been through a similar situation and could offer guidance?