I have been struggling with severe period pains since I was about 15 (before I even had my first period). It was so bad that I would have to take days off school because I was shaking and throwing up because of the pain. At 16 I went on the combined pill which made the pain a lot less but still quiet severe. Now at 20 years old, I still have to spend the first few days before and during my period in bed because I’m in too much pain and too tired to do anything. I went to have an ultrasound and was told everything looked fine except the fact that I have some fluid “where it’s not supposed to be, and that’s concerning”. I have now been referred to a specialist and told I’d probably need a laparoscopy but my appointment isn’t till July.
I think what I’m most afraid of is the fact that I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I’m scared that a specialist will tell me it isn’t endometriosis because then I’ll have no idea what is actually wrong with me.
I’m also suffering from mayor self-doubt. I’m always wondering if I’m just weak and that this pain I have is normal, what if I simply have nothing wrong with me and I’m just a wimp for not being able to handle “normal” period cramps.
I was just wondering if anyone else feels this way as well and how can I know that what I’m feeling is legit, that my pain isn’t normal, that having to stay in bed during my period is justified.