So today is a bad day I can not get out of bed I took my mophine today. I didn't leave in the end last night because I want to fight for my relationship. So now my partners is in a mood because it's a Saturday and I can't do anything. It's hard why is everyday such a battle. I'm thinking this place would be better if I weren't in it. I'm so low and feel so week. I can't even get out of bed to go toilet. I wish I had family or someone to help me and not burden my husband all the time. I hate this life.