My little verse...

[missteal]

I wrote a poem and thought I'd share, it doesn't rhyme or have rhythm but neither does my pain....

I'm sitting in a prison

with nowhere to escape

I sit here waiting for it all to be OK

I make no plans and have no life

For fear of letting people down

My body is my enemy

I want to take it off

It has strangled my dreams, plans and hopes

I live just to bring my children up well

Without them there would be no point in life

I see people around me

Taking for granted the little thing I wish I could do

They moan about money, their hair and the weather

All I want is to wake up without pain

How can I be happy in this lonely, broken shell?

The things I want are simple

I do not wish for much

I want to walk my children to school

I want to work and earn a wage

I want to mow my lawn and paint my kitchen

So instead I stay on my sofa

my hot water bottle slowly cooling

Watching people walk past my house in the sun

Waiting for my pain to end or to fall asleep

I cannot see any light at the end of my tunnel

There is no cure for my broken body, only more pain

The worst bit is that it's my problem and I don't expect anyone to come and save me from my hell, I just wish I could save myself x

Kat (endometriosis, ehler-danlos hypermobility syndrome, migraines, restless leg syndrome, IBS, gastric reflux, pelvic adhesions, depression)

[amera]

I am so sorry to hear about how you feel. I cant begin to imagine I am in constant pain but no where near what you have i really do hope there is a light for...

good luck

Amera

[missteal]

Thanks Amera, it's all just got a bit much recently and I've now got strep throat so I can't even talk which is also something I enjoy. I'm sure life will get better for me I just wish I knew what to do

[astrogirl7]

Missteal, your poem is poetic and truly touched me. You're obviously very creative and I suspect a wonderful mum, too. I understand you perfectly about the pain and each persons suffering is unique to them. So, I cant tell you it will get better because I dont know that but you can be sure there are ladies out here that understand most of what you're going through and will support you in thoughts and words.

Take care xx

[missteal]

awww, thanks astrogirl, I am working closely with a physio who specialises in my hypermobility syndrome so I should be gaining some strength really soon. Being positive helps but sometimes we all get overwhelmed with our pain. Big hug xx

[cherryblossom83]

so sad but so beautify in its honesty and it somes up my life , the only difference being i have a child not children. stay strong ... your not alone .xxxx