My name is Nadine and I'm 18 years old now I have struggled all my life throughout my education and no one ever wanted to help me no teachers.
In primary school, they give me speech therapy which did help as I wasn't able to hear sounds of letters when trying to spelling or missing out letters and so on. I can't take any instructions as soon as they are read I will instantly forget what it was to do which I always struggle repeatedly to this day. I don't struggle with reading I just don't like it because as soon as I read a paragraph or a page I don't know what it is on about. I have had a tutor since an early age helping with English I am able to speak what I would like to stay but I can't translate it onto paper it is never makes sense always in different tenses and when trying to get my point across its not in on small paragraph it's usually a page. When doing assignments I don't get any help from my tutor in college only at home which is private but then I still have trouble. I have found that white on black is no good for me I have trouble with it but I have used yellow and feel its easier for me to understand. I lose concentration after 5 minutes if the tutor talks for the full other I don't what's happening.
I have difficulty with planning and writing essays, letters, or reports I often avoid as I am able to do but is never correct as it all comes out wrong even though I know what I want to stay but doesn't come out.
I have poor memory I have always got to write everything down as I will instantly forget what has just been said or if my mum told me to do something I forget or if a tutor asks or tells I can't remember. I also have poor time management as I still don't know the time or don't know how long it is until that time of day it has always got to be told to me in digital. I have always struggled and I can speak my mind but that's the only way. I have struggled with simplest words and even have blocks which are daily. I do prefer to use a laptop as I'm more likely to do work but always struggle to understand what the questions ask to do or even I will miss it out as I'm not able to understand. This frustrates the hell out of me wears me down as I struggle so much all my life they just say I have the lack of self-esteem or confidence which I don't. I am able to watch tv and able to explain what is going on which I do watch a lot of TV but I enjoy as I can understand what is going on. Out of know where I have an interest in the sport which no one in the family does but I watch all types of sports and able to explain what it's all about having conversations with people even though I don't play. I know what's going on which is very strange but I enjoy very much. I am a visual learner which doesn't help me but I don't get any help from anyone exempt outside if I could avoid English I would I also struggle with spelling and other things like I can't even tell my right from left. I think the reason why I don't get help is because of my GCSE aren't too bad I only had C's and D's but the reason I got them was with outside tutoring and revising even though no of it would go in I would never be able to process information. My mum has tried everything for me been down every route because it really affects me knowing why can't I do this stuff even though I can it's so frustrating it even brings a tear to my eyes. Whenever I handed in assignments they were always wrong due to the wording of it and the spelling mistakes and repetition constantly but never wanted to give help. I just want some clarification for me so I know that I'm not completely dumb as I have two brainy brothers and sister which doesn't make it easy for me but I'm just wondering why do I have all these little problems all the time struggling with English and even the time not being able to start essays always having someone to do it for me.
I have been down the line of a psychologist but it's still not any clarification for me because I had some trouble off a tutor due to these problems. I feel like I always hit a brick wall all through my life. I went down the line of private it buts its far too expensive and there are so many tests that it not correct. It's just annoying due to struggling I have made my techniques by using colour paper using highlights for example pink for important yellow for things to understand but not so important and so on. I just need some advice I'm 18 years old and just want to know what is wrong of is it because I'm a slow learner I always needed help. But they don't care because I have ok results in what I do so they just assume I'm fine. But they don't know the truth it will take me at least three weeks to understand assignments it doesn't take a day it takes a very long time for me.