Progressive Illness

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Bellow are excerpts from the chapter More about Alcoholism of the book AA:

We know that no real alcoholic ever recovers control. All of us felt at times that we were regaining control, but such intervals—usually brief—were inevitably followed by still less control, which led in time to pitiful and incomprehensible demoralization. We are convinced to a man that alcoholics of our type are in the grip of a progressive illness. Over any considerable period we get worse, never better.

It was so true for me. So many vain attempts and finally had to surrender/accept I have an issue. That helped me receiving the solution.