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Respite from a “trigger”

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Recovering alcoholic here. I just had a few minutes of talking to a very depressed person who turned to alcohol so he could feel something. A contradiction, right? Actually, I wasn’t triggered, but it brought back memories of my early days of drinking. Turning to alcohol for a companion. Trying to control the amount that I drank so I wouldn’t have an ungodly hangover the next day. White knuckling it to stop drinking before I went to far and crossed the line of no return. Well, as most of know already, after the first drink, we’ve crossed that line. Alcoholics have no control over alcohol. It controls us. It happens sometimes slowly, sometimes quickly. But always happens. It tells us it’s our best friend. That we’re smarter, taller, more confident, wittier. That life will be better if alcohol stays in our life. But, guess what? Alcohol is a profound liar. Eventually, it will destroy a person and people around them, like it almost did to me. I finally asked for help from an organization that has nearly a hundred years of experience. That’s why I’m here today, able to make a post.

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6ixtyon1

...I hope my rambling diatribe also didn't set anything off...my deepest apologies, if it did....I am still trying to learn to control my vitriol, and I am not very good at that...

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Isinatra in reply to 6ixtyon1

Oh, heavens NO, you weren’t the reason for the post! I shouldn’t have put the word trigger in it. That would indicate that I wanted to drink or did drink. The one sided interaction I had reminded me of the reasons why I don’t drink anymore. Actually, the post of the person that reminded me why I don’t drink, did me a favor. It’s all good, my friend. 💖👍🏼✌️

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6ixtyon1 in reply to Isinatra

Blessings to you! I wish "others" would stop, think, consider, as you do!

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Isinatra in reply to 6ixtyon1

I understand 6ixtyon1. My hope to you “they” do so while there’s still time. Try to take care of yourself as well. 💖

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BTCCET

Bless you Isi you know that I'm a woman of not many words from other communities, but you are an absolute treasure 😇

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Isinatra in reply to BTCCET

Thank you, B. Your replying to me on this community says a lot more than words. 💖🍫😉

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Zara0123 in reply to Isinatra

You are a very strong women Isinatra and I am so proud to have you as my friend 🤗😘There are very few people who can help others after what you have been through. This is what makes you so unique 😇

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Isinatra in reply to Zara0123

Thank you, Zara. You are another benefit of not drinking. 💖🌸

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Zara0123 in reply to Isinatra

No its the other way round I've benefit from the friendship thanks to you 😊

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Isinatra in reply to Zara0123

☺️

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Zara0123 in reply to BTCCET

Sorry B I had to use the same emoji as you because I can't think of a better one for Isinatra. Here's two for you too 🍫😋 😂

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So true M and your a treasure too 🧡😺pixies mummy here lol I'm like Madonna I keep reinventing myself she's a Leo like me and isinatra 😁

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Hi Mandy. Glad you’re back.

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Thank you lovely nice to hear from you how are you I'm keeping low profile and won't be posting I don't think on any site for a while but will reply I'm on care community and HE Andrew T post got taken off as he forgot to put his meal on bless him I had to reply and tell him he put it on but they had closed replies to his post then it got taken off its so strict on there you can't say anything 🧡🏊😺

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It's got stupid and petty on the he board hasn't it?

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As admin on. HE your comment has been noted and my query is why would someone make an irrelevant rambling post on the Healthy Eating community and not mention food?

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Andrew realised he forgot when I told him and he put his meal description on it then got restricted from replies and when I looked later it had got removed, I am not arguing with you Jerry or anyone life's too short I always saw you as a fair man but I think it was as cat said a bit pety and trivial that a admin the new one banned me from saying to a friend I have to go now pixie isn't well, you and Leah lifted the ban which I was grateful for but after that felt what's the point when I can't even say a little harmless thing like that, I noticed on vegan site a admin kitten whiskas posted a chick no food and conversation about her washing, I don't understand why it's so strict on HE, happy man removed most of his post as he wasn't happy either as having to watch comments been deleted he stopped deleting his posts when came to the one when he left before and remembered his good friends on here

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As said before never liked social media always ends up in trouble and upsetment, too many people with different views different rules I'm keeping out the way I only came back here to read your reply I have a lot of stuff to deal with in my life as so many do and i am done with it, social media not for me, I felt sorry for Andrew after he'd wrote a interesting post about his lunch out then for it to be removed right I'm done have a good day

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Good to see you Mandy xx

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You too thanks I'm just off to cut the grass and there is no admin on here so it's more relaxed I dare not post or speak on HE take care 🤗😺💐xx

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I liked Madonna back in the 80s when I was growing up!

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Bazzak in reply to BTCCET

You maybe hereYou maybe there

The pilker finds you

Everywhere !

Hello Marilyn 🤣🤗😘

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BTCCET in reply to Bazzak

Oh my goodness, my worthy opponent! 😘

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Bazzak in reply to BTCCET

Your team won today, so I thought I'd make it a day of surprises 🤣🤣😘

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BTCCET in reply to Bazzak

And tomorrow is another day! Hope the claret and blue are on form👍

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Bazzak in reply to BTCCET

Will be hard without Antonio, but we will see 😁, hope you and the family are well Marilyn, stay safe please .

Hello my dear friend I feel you may be right and maby I'm in denial but I went all goosey again when read your reply this happend before couple times and I'm not cold, I came on here as was going to leave drink free and saw this I decided to stop drinking and did I took up swimming and felt better then I decided oh I'll get bottle wine I'm not in a mood it just be nice to have couple I only actually had quarter bottle struggled with last bit of glass but thought it help me sleep the next night I finished bottle off, I keep buying a bottle wine thinking I'm in control same happened again I had one glass one night then next night drank the rest, I must have a problem or why can't I just have none yes I feel I need it there as my companion my comfort, I tire myself out keeping busy swimming gardening cycling to d I y shops today 🧡

You are a true legend Isinatra. Your post and story will make all the difference to someone in that position. I can only encourage you to keep going, you are making such a difference to so many lives . Bless you.

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Isinatra in reply to

Thank you, Bifield. A big part of AA teachings is to help another alcoholic is to help yourself. ☺️

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Isinatra in reply to Isinatra

P. S. I’m nowhere near a legend. But I appreciate your words. 🙏

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I think that philosophy in mental health as well.

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Isinatra in reply to

Oh, yes. There certainly are similarities. The two have a tendency to go hand in hand. Not always, but more than not.

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