As some of you know its been a long journey and a lot of stopping and starting but I am finally into three figures. I can report giving up is much more satisfying and life changing than the years trying to moderate. However on the flip side whilst battling to cut down I honed some sober skills and read and listened to books podcasts and all of your good advice which was crucial. This emotional sobriety really helped. After about three months people around me stopped offering alcohol as often or asking when I was going to start drinking again.
I am not resting on my laurels I was offered a glass of Rose today and was tempted. The wine witch isn't dominating my life but I can still hear her trying to persuade me I am ' fixed' or worse still 'have a drink nobody will know! '. But the sky seems bluer, the roses smell sweeter and I am starting to feel better about myself. Thank you for allvyour kind words. I am goingvto battle on. Keep fighting the battle guys its without doubt worth it however many trip ups and wrong turns you take.
At war with myself. 
hi everyone
Trying again
40 days AF
