hi guys,
I have been using healthunlocked and it's lovely community in support of me stopping smoking & vaping.. which I have succeeded with 7 months + and counting 💪🏻
A year ago ( on yhe 22nd of March to be exact) I lost my best friend to cancer. He was young and fit when he was diagnosed 7 months prior. Him not having a living family anymore meant I became his primary carer.
I am not in anyway a kid ( I'm 41) but I felt I was catapulted to adulthood never have dealt with anything like that. I was spending every minute I was not working taking care of my best friend.
When he lost his battle, I was absolutely devastated. The hospice supported me with counselling and advice, which I'm so grateful for. After my friend passed, it took a long time to sort his affairs and finally get his ashes, which I and the wider group of friends scattered at his favourite beach.
The last few weeks leading to the anniversary have been extremely tough and I have been drinking way too much every night.
I exercise daily, weight lift and run, and I have a professional high stress job which I'm doing (hopefully) well. However, the evening comes and I feel like I have to numb myself from pain.
Craig was like a brother to me. We used to call each other: brother from another mother and sister from another mister.
I feel lost and I know what I'm doing is so unhealthy. I'm reading a lot and listening to a lot of podcasts on sobriety. I feel this is becoming a problem and I don't have anyone who I could speak to who would not judge me. Even my partner is making stupid remarks on me drinking but not asking why.
I would be grateful to get any advice on how to get started on the journey. I'm not drinking the volume which would cause any physical issues ( yet)
Sorry for the long post and thank you for reading 🙏🥺