Attempting to quit again

[AlMadge13]

I had a severe problem with alcohol during my late twenties into my early thirties.

Weekly I would drink about 80 oz of crown royal, about 6-12 tall cans and drinks when I go out. I told myself I work full time, exercise and eat my own cooking I deserved it. I even peed the bed multiple times and just pegged myself as being “a binge drinker” on occasion and didn’t consider that alcoholism.

After 6 months of quitting, get diagnosed with bipolar 2 disorder and anxiety I decided I felt good enough again to enjoy the odd beer here and there.

Well that went fine for a while until I got manic being on only antidepressants and needed a mood stabilizer and started sneaking alcohol behind my partners back. I told myself he just hated drinking and I wasn’t drinking in excess even tho it was daily. I told myself it’s fine because I didn’t drink nearly as much as I used to. This has gone on.. off and on for about two years.

I was sneaking alcohol again lately and started reminding myself alcohol isn’t making me feel better. I KNOW THIS. Yet I still crave and want to sneak drinks. So maybe I have more of a problem than I like to admit.

hoping that some empathy and support might help me through my struggles.

[Jampacked]

Giving up is the right thing to do. I am glad you are here. The wine witch 🧙‍♀️ will try to trick you into drinking with her incessant dialogue. Keep reading. Allan Carrs books are good at explaining this.

[LilyAnnepuppy Ambassador]

for me, “once an alcoholic, always an alcoholic.” If I take one drink, I’m off to the races. I entered AA at 28. There I found tools and people to help me. That was in 1978. And I haven’t had to pick up a drink since then. But I still attend AA meetings and work the 12 suggested steps a day at a time. There’s always Zoom meetings to go to. I know a lot of people who got and stayed sober online.

aa-intergroup.org/oiaa/meet...