fighting my battles

[Hal3y]

I’m been thinking a lot to myself lately, even tho I drank a few days ago(next day felt like shit, had mad anxiety) why does my body keep asking me for more! I’m finding some AA meetings around me, I’m really trying my best to be clean and what’s crazy is I’m only 18 and still have a whole life ahead of me, my father was an alcoholic he also started drinking at a young age I remember telling myself I was never going to end up this way. But I find myself struggling with the same situation. I finally understand how he felt after he would be hungover. I’m keeping my head up right now and this group really makes me feel like I’m not alone.

[chloe40]

Hi Hal3y

Great to have you with us,

Stick with us and post often, the support you'll receive is essential !

Chloe

[Jacay]

hi Hal3y my father was also alcoholic and I grew up hating him for that, but part of me also knew that he was not the demon he seemed to be but I just couldn’t understand why. We had a big argument one day; I tried to stop him from drinking - unsuccessful of course whilst he was drunk.

Out of frustration and wanting to understand what was in alcohol that’s so addictive that he would choose it over his loving daughter. I downed his liquor and that was when I got drunk for the first time. I was 18, same age as you.

I didn’t start drinking drinking until older. But there was always a part of me wanted to understand why my father had to drink, as I drank more and more, I finally understood and I found myself following his path. I wish I had more empathy for him, I wish I was more patience to help him, and that I had told him I knew how powerless he was.

You have great self-awareness and you know you need help to stop. I wish I was as wise as you when I was 18. Like you said, you still have a whole life ahead of you. You can do this and we are here to support.

[LilyAnnepuppy Ambassador]

My father was an alcoholic and my mother suffered from depression (and became a prescription pill addict). I wasn’t going to be like either one of them. And ended up like both.

I drank alcoholically for 12 years. Fought with cops. Woke up In strange beds. Was an abusive mother. Was divorced twice. Stole money. I was a mess. Then I admitted I was powerless over alcohol at 28 and entered AA. It saved my life. And gave me a blueprint for living.

I also deal with my mental illness by going to therapy and taking meds as prescribed.

Keep coming. You can leave your misery behind any time you’d like.