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after 5 weeks enjoying beer last night proper fell of wagon and drank and drank and woke up this morning and already thinking have a few tonight to make me feel better

Trying to tell myself going home tomorrow just go gym and sleep put the demon in back saying get a few Weston’s make ya feel better

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chloe40

Oh Murphy81

that's a shame, you were doing so well, but you can start again, you did it before, so yes, please go to the gym as before if you can,

We here for you!

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Murphy81 in reply to chloe40

cheers packing my gym gear as speak

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I think it’s great you checked in. That’s one of the actions I take on a regular basis. I report to my peeps every day. Keep plugging away. We’re here for you.

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Murphy81 in reply to LilyAnnepuppy

cheers just reading this and just about to pack my gym bag take care thankyou again

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kenster1

I was an every day drinker usually cider then vodka when my mum was ill and after she died. after months of turmoil I met a friend of my dads and he said it`s ok to go on a bender for a few weeks it`s understandable I took that in to account maybe not right away. drinking just masks over and adds to our problems it never helps us at all. you can do it and get back on track.

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Murphy81

cheers sorry for your loss your doing great and true drink does just mask over just when start it’s hard to know when to stop and guess that’s hardest problem most of use have

This is really honest of you! Thank you for posting! You are a human being with complicated emotions - sometimes we make mistakes. Forgive yourself.

Do you know what triggered this?

Moderation is going ok for me at the moment but I find there are days when I feel I've had a gutful of reality. I still have this urge to drink to escape life. Work not good this week, money always a struggle, weather dreary... all been getting on top of me lately. I have to say this to myself and I say it to you too: BETTER DAYS AHEAD.

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Murphy81

thankyou I managed to get through without a drink so buzzing thankyou for your words all help and hope your well

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Murphy81

I’ve just got it In that sometimes when start drinking don’t know when to stop and reality is not drinking to hide anything got a healthy family nice house just been made up at work

It’s just my relationship with alcohol is bad when start don’t always know when to stop and then leads me to drink next to to take edge Off

Out today did not do that so buzzing and as you said better days ahead and if you need to chat about anything I’m here don’t have to do anything alone

You need any help let me know you doing well

Work and money worries are a real burden used to drink when mining as worried was going to close etc things will get better take care

Hi Murphy81, I only just saw this reply. I don't see to get alerts for people's replies which is annoying. I'll take a closer look later. Off to gym in a minute. It has done nothing but rain all weekend and I am so fed up. I had a massive cry yesterday evening which actually made me feel a lot better. I very rarely cry because I tend to be somebody who pretends everything is fine, so I probably need to be a bit honest about how I'm really feeling sometimes. we all have good days and bad days. I suppose I am a bit of a fantasist sometimes, and I wish that everybody could be happy all the time, but life isn't like that is it! So it is learning how to self-soothe as the therapist say, I have never really been very good at this, but I need to learn. That's why I have started saying: better days ahead! I have to believe it's true to keep going!

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Hi hope have a good workout

Glad having a good cry as done you good and realising opening up helps I used to same I would bottle everything up and then self destruct and nearly lost everything

So went to see a councillor and opening up to stranger was just what needed and started to realise could not keep things bottled up and also could not be in more one place at a time

You are doing great and every step forward you take is a step closer to being happier and healthier

We can not change the past and bring back what we miss put can get to stage we’re smile and we know they will happy that we healthy and smiling cos that what love ones will want

If need anything just ask always here

Thank you. That's very kind. I'm glad to hear you've had counselling. It's so valuable. I had CBT counselling for my panic attacks & it honestly changed my life. My anxiety does get on top of me still sometimes but exercise helps a huge deal with that. Stay strong, keep moving! 😊

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