Now aged 50, still physically very active.
I have been feeling unwell for about 7 years.
Symptoms-feeling of unreality every minute of the day which led to anxiety and panicy feeling (no fast breathing but feeling of dread which led to vomiting about twice a week).
Spongey feeling in my feet where I felt a bit unstable.
I also suffered dizzy spells where the room spun around terribly about once a month.
Once sitting watching tv both my eyes decided to do a twirling whirling circle motion for about 5 seconds completely round and round - such a weird experience.
One morning had a good lie in as I didn’t have work the next day only to find arm and leg felt dead and I lumbered to the bathroom for a wee and had trouble pulling my pants down.
Multiple trips to 2 local GPs who put me on anti-depressants, sent me to a balance clinic.
Balance clinic after saw a nystagmus in my right eye and decided to do an MRI scan.
MRI results took 6 months.
GP said I had 2 strokes showing - 1 on each side of my brain.
Sent me to the stroke clinic who did blood tests and MRI
He said the strokes could have been anytime.
Stroke consultant on cholesterol and blood thining tablets now (about 6 months so far)
No further appointments with the stroke consultant.
I managed to lower and lower my anti depressant tablets to zero.
My question is - can I get any help regarding the unreality, or any other help to assist me in regaining a better grade of life?
I no longer have anxiety as I now know what caused my feeling of unwellness.
But I am stuck with this depersonalisation and I do have to think longer for words these days. I also feel more delicate (if that makes sense) , things around me make me weary.
All the things that I have read regarding strokes always lean towards physical rehabilitation but mine is slightly different.
I have no trust in my GPs so don’t want to go there without knowing what I want to say, what treatment I require from them via referral so I thought I would ask here.
So sorry for the long post but by reading it and helping me you could change my life.
Like a swan I’m calm on the top but frantically struggling underneath trying to keep my life together.