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A year ago today I lost my beautiful sister. I feel the loss and pain today especially like I did 366 days ago. But I still pray and talk to her as much as I can as I know she’s listening and looking down on me because I hear her.

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nvp815

Oh Vince, so hard to believe it has been a year already since Teresa’s (Lola’s) passing. Sending hugs and hoping your memories of your beautiful sister bring you peace.

Warm regards,

Nan

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NewdawnAdministrator

I think of her so often with fondness and deep sadness Vince. Teresa (our Lola) was a force of nature and her passing was much too soon and cruel.

Best wishes to you and her loved ones on this painful anniversary.

Newdawn x

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Name-1

Vince,I know what is your painfull.Lola is wonderful for us in memory.

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Jm954Administrator

You can rest assured that she is not forgotten here, her name is often mention and with fond memories of the lovely person she was.

Jackie

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TeresaVince in reply to Jm954

Nice to hear. Thanks you put a smile I thought I wouldn’t be able to do today

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PlanetaryKim

I often think of Teresa, Vince. I remember her so fondly. She was such a vital force and presence here. Hard to believe a year has passed. My deepest sympathies to you.

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Traudel in reply to PlanetaryKim

Sorry Kim, was not a member at the time.

Was CLL the reason this beautiful person had to leave this earth so early?

Appreciate,

Traudel

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PlanetaryKim in reply to Traudel

Yes.

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Justasheet1

God bless you and her children. She is missed here greatly.

Jeff

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Sojomama13

It is hard to imagine that it has been a year since we lost our Lola. Losing a sibling must be incredibly difficult. Our siblings are our first friends. Please know that I think of her very often and wonder how all of you are coping.

God bless all of you.

Sandy💙💙💙

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TeresaVince in reply to Sojomama13

Not easy I tell you. When you lose a parent you lose the past, when you lose a child you lose the future, when you lose a sibling , you lose your past and your future. This I assure you.

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Sojomama13 in reply to TeresaVince

My brother is my best friend, even in our 50’s, he really is. He knows me better and I know myself, he is my mirror, I cannot slip anything by him. I’m so sorry.

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TeresaVince in reply to Sojomama13

That’s what we had. Can’t even go see her today with this COVID-19

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Peggy4

Thinking of you all. Definitely missed here.

Peggy.

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leilei

Missing her here...

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nour80

She is missed a lot

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AutumnJ

Teresa (Lola) died on my birthday last year. When I first came to this site, a few months previously, I was impressed by her knowledge, humour and how forthright she was. I often think of her and am raising a glass to her 🍷.

RIP Lola

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TeresaVince in reply to AutumnJ

Happy Birthday

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NewdawnAdministrator in reply to AutumnJ

Lola would certainly have been raising a glass to you for your birthday Autumn. She liked a nice cocktail from what she said especially on her holidays 😊

I remember starting Venetoclax at the same time as Lola was due to start it last year. I was in hospital hoping and praying that she’d been well enough to start the Venetoclax. I knew from her messages that she was really poorly by then but we just couldn’t accept she wouldn’t make it. It hit the community hard because the one thing you could say about Lola, she didn’t just fade into the background and she told it how it was. I really admired that quality about her 😉

I can totally understand why you miss her so much Vince. I adore my brother and can only imagine your pain.

Newdawn

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TeresaVince in reply to Newdawn

Thank you for brining some memories of her last days. She was a very very strong person right until the last minute. Allot of people might not know this but when the doctors told her they couldn’t do anything more for her, it was she that decided when to say enough. She sent everyone home except my wife and then called the doctor and said she was ready. I can only imagine how hard that had to be for her and my wife whom quietly understood her discussion with the medic and pleaded her not to go. 😢

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NewdawnAdministrator in reply to TeresaVince

That doesn’t surprise me about Teresa at all Vince. She was incredibly strong and focussed. She told us on here that her platelets wouldn’t improve no matter how many infusions she had.

What an emotionally wrenching experience that must have been for your wife and an honour that she trusted her enough to ask her to be there at the end 😔

Newdawn

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josephinef

Dear Vince,

Thanks for touching base with us. It’s always great to hear from you.

Sometimes I still expect messages from our dearest Teresa (Lola).

She was a very brave young woman. Gone too soon.

Nothing meant more to Lola than her loving Family.

Thinking of you and all your family.

Sending you hugs and prayers.

Take care and keep safe and well.

Kind regards from Josephine from Australia.

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EugeneL2

Thank you for your post. We all miss her, but I feel like she is here with us. she would have added a lot to the current COVID 19 discussions.

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Ginajetta

I think of her often. She was such an encouragement to me personally. A beautiful friend. I miss her. Thinking of you and sending hugs.

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1ofakind

I too miss her candid comments and her real interest in us all ...

She updated us on her declining experience and as long as she could and she responded to our own questions and situations .. Lola as I knew her ,cared about so many but she cared mostly about her family and just wanted to know that they’d

be ok .... Some of her last posts were about you all ....Remembering her especially for you is bittersweet because you feel the void but going on , building your own lives and enjoying the good is a tribute to her memory !

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TeresaVince in reply to 1ofakind

I’m making sure the kids are good, doing and trying my best. It’s not easy but so far all good.

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Sergi

It’s incredible how you can feel sorrow and miss somebody you never met....She was so caring and helpful when my wife started her treatment with Ibrutinib , she was always available to talk on the phone and sending message to ask how she was doing even when she was already suffering from the shingles.

Miss her deeply

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very

Thinking of you, and your family.

jenny uk

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Sepsur

I’m shocked that it is already a year since Lola passed away. What a lovely person she appeared to be, she comes into my thoughts frequently.

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headjog

Theresa (Lola) was a true inspiration, she touched everyone with her genuine, strong and warm personality and was taken far too quickly......it was a massive shock and can only imagine how tough things are for you Vince, she spoke of you and her family a lot. I wanted to say thank you for coming back here, lovely to hear that you still talk to each other x

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TeresaVince in reply to headjog

Thank you. I can assure everyone that I treat my nephews and niece as my own, as a matter of fact they have no one but myself and my parents whom are hitting their 90s. We do our best and make sure they don’t miss anything

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BeckyLUSA

The feeling of loss never goes away. But the good memories are there as well! Know that we miss her as well. She was such an inspiration!

BeckyL USA

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Davemich

Hugs to you ♥️♥️ She sounded like an amazing beautiful soul with a huge heart - loved and missed by so many ♥️♥️♥️

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Smakwater

Lola is a perfect memory, and with that memory, here is spring in all it's splendor.

Sadness and Joy at the same time.

JM

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Miller1960

Thinking of you and Lola today. I remember that day and remember her. Sending hugs your way.❤👭

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love23

I’m so sorry for your loss. I can’t imagine. Sending big hugs and prayers your way. May God bring you strength, comfort, and peace. 💛

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TeresaVince in reply to love23

Thank you so much

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MsLockYourPostsPassed Volunteer

This is such a perfect picture of Teresa! That impish smile, the twinkle in her eye, and everything about it speaks to her zest for life. We never quite knew when she would be serious, when she would say something outlandish, when she would be there to support other members, or to just share herself with us. Hers was such a multifaceted personality!!!! We were so fortunate to have had her as a part of our CLL family.

Hugs to you and her children! She loved all of you so very much.

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TeresaVince in reply to MsLockYourPosts

Much needed sweet words. Thank you so so much

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AdrianUK

We all miss her a lot on here who we will always know as our Lola. She was much loved by us but I am sure even more so by her family.

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