I guess I am in denial about the whole thing, I'm 78 years old, a jazz musician and playwright. I lost my beautiful wife to breast cancer 12 years ago she was 48, lost my brother to cancer he was 37 I was 27. My father died of leukemia at 57. So I'm here in Mexico for now playing jazz 5 nights a week. I smoke, I drink, I eat healthy, excercise and pretty much not concerned about the CLL, discovered by a simple blood test, told the doc I'm feeling tired. Of course if I don't feel well I wonder if it's the CLL or just not feeling so great. I know this sounds crazy, at this point I don't really care. I'm in the W&W period, I things get worse I would refuse treatment, wish I didn't know about it! Thanks to you all, take care, we all have something.