Ok, here goes. I have just returned home after my first CT scan revealed that all is not as I had hoped. I was diagnosed with SLL 2 weeks ago, and although that blew me away I now feel even worse. After my original diagnosis I was given an examination and given that I have no other symptoms (i.e. night sweats ,itching etc.) it was felt that I was very much a watch and wait patient, but was sent for a CT scan as is the norm. I am a male firefighter, 42 years old, fit as a butchers dog(or so I thought), and was totally happy with my life. The perfect family, as we are referred to by friends, and then BANG, out of nowhere our world is turned upside down, as only those that have experienced it can appreciate. Two weeks after my diagnosis I retuned to hospital for my scan results, a formality I assumed ,as the only issue I had was a lump under my arm that led me to the doctors in the first place. To then be told that I had other lumps beneath my diaphragm and that I will start FCR chemotherapy next week has really frightened me. I, like a lot of others out there no doubt, have no idea what`s coming. I have been given literature to read, and the hospital ward that are looking after me have been great, but I feel to correspond with people in the same boat as us can be nothing but beneficial. If any of you good people out there can offer me any advice it will be gratefully received.