Over a year ago, I developed an egg-sized lump on the side of my neck which has since grown to be bigger than a grapefruit protruding from my neck and collarbone. I've seen a specialist who said it was a harmless post-traumatic seroma from a very minor sports injury and I've since had an unsuccessful bleomycin treatment. I'm waiting on a second treatment, but I don't know if it'll many more months. In the meantime, I feel like my confidence has taken a nose-dive. It took 8 months of waiting before I got treated, and I just want to be happy in my appearance while I wait for the next step.
I have long hair that I use to try and cover my neck because it's very noticeable regardless of what kind of top I wear. I just can't bring myself to go out in public without carefully arranging my hair and always feeling nervous and uncomfortable. I want to go on dates and meet people, but I don't know how to find the strength to face this head-on. I never considered myself to be vain, but I want to cry anytime someone stares at me or asks uncomfortable questions about my appearance.
How can I stop putting things on hold and go on with my life?