I hope this is the right place to post and hope you don't mind me asking. But my dad died at 67 of end stage liver disease on 21 September we've had his funeral and it was a celebration of his life as it should be. Lots of people came to see him off and everyone said how he was such a kind caring guy,which I already knew.
I've been ok but now am left with the demons and questions as why didn't he stop sooner, why didn't he listen, was me and my brother not important enough to stop.
These thoughts are starting to drag me down that I wonder if anyone has had similar experiences and dealt with it so could offer advice or is there a bereavement service.. I know alcoholism is an illness but when he had to stop he did which almost makes me think he had a lot more choice in it..
Sorry if it's not appropriate but I thought I'd ask. Ive posted a pic of me my dad and brother so people see the people behind th e post and also if anyone is going through similar they might read this and think of the upset it caused if the fight is lost.