Missing my dad... it's been 3 months and it's hard for me to believe I will not be able to talk to my dad ever again. I go about with my days and with my job but I think about it ALL the time. The leading up until his passing, being his caregiver, the ups and the downs (in the last mos but also years), conversations had, the passing itself. Everything! All the emotions that come not only with death but with an alcoholic death. Sometimes I will listen to a voice mail from him when I want to hear his voice. Lately I've been thinking hard about where you go when you pass away. Like where is he? What happens? Is it like before you are born when you are not aware? Or are you somewhere in heaven? I know there are not answers only what one believes in I'm just saying my dad dying made me think so much harder about all of this! My mom believes in heaven but she believes the person has to believe in it to go there and she doesn't know what my dad believed. Who knows. I did get a tattoo with his handwriting (from a card he gave me- he signed ALL his cards this way). I'm attaching a picture. Thanks for listening.