I' fairly new to this forum and have been finding it super helpful and comfortable. I'm to the hospital this morning for my check-up. A year ago today I was in the same hospital with a decompensated liver and a 30% chance of making it to Tuesday! Understandably I cannot remember much about it. I am an alcoholic and have battled the illness all my life. Having maintained 6mth sobriety.. I was terrified. I got hysterical if I thought there was even a trace of alcohon in my food. My consultant says that after 6mths sober, I relapsed on holiday. I didn't...I chose to drink, yes me! Dodging bullets big time I decide to cut back by 2/3rds and not drink in the morning, ha ha gamma having normalised with everything else in September back out at 289. So I think I need to cultivate some gratitude and be thankful, ultra sound clear, no varices or ascites or HE and I honestly have enjoyed past 3wks sober. I 'm still scared of Dr Death as I call him he just seems to make me feel weak and stupid and ungrateful. Oh God. Thanks for reading, feel o.k ow.