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Hi .... I very rarely write a post ... Just comment on others ... I was diagnosed Feb 2010 operation in March .

Large tumour left breast spread to 27 of 28 lymph nodes, another primary in right albeit a tiny one ....double mastectomy. Chemo and radiotherapy ... I have just chatted to my breast cancer nurse and have had to make an appointment for a scan as I have a swelling just between my clavicals .. Not sore or large but as you all will understand...worrying .. Any way I have an appointment for next Thursday 8.30 am ! So fingers crossed ! πŸ˜³πŸ˜•πŸ˜” thanks for the moan ! πŸ˜‚ Easier to write than chat to people who don't understand x

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Lainey66

Hey Mandy, Jayneee Mack... that is a worry. Please God it is nothing. Where are the clavicals? (Please excuse my ignorance). You take care and have a glass of wine and relax in a bubble filled bath. When I feel frustrated or low, I put a stool next to the bath, put a glass of wine, my latest book I am reading and my phone on it. If I cant concentrate on the book, I have my cry in the bath and often lower myself below the water. I hold my breath and just listen to my heart. It sounds really odd I know but it relaxes me, I am telling myself that I am alive and that I will continue to live, laugh, love and make memories for many years to come. I then let the air out slowly listening to the bubbles. I dont known why but I feel quite different when i surface. Sometimes I just lie in theb water with my thoughts (sipping that all important wine) other times it clears my head so much that I can actually concentrate and get lost in my book. Sorry for yapping on. Reading this back makes me sound like a batty old mare, but it works for me. Mind you I often think I am a bit touched, and not by the hand of God! πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚ ... Lainey66 xxx

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Mandywilson in reply to Lainey66

Ha ha ... You've made me laugh ! I think I am touched with something too !,, πŸ™„πŸ˜„πŸ€“sorry for terminology .. Clavicals are collar bones at base of neck .. And yes I may have a drink of something !! 🍸🍸🍸🍸🍸🍸🍸🍸I do tai chi and trying to practice mindfulness.. But whatever is thrown at us we will sort it ... But fingers crossed xx thanks for the laugh x

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NickAl in reply to Lainey66

Batty old mare you may sound. You have sure brought a smile to my face. πŸ˜„ Xx

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Jennymary

Keeping everything crossed it's nothing serious xxx

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Mandywilson in reply to Jennymary

Thank you .. We can only wait & see at least it's an early appointment .. And a scan done on the day ... And results there and then ... X

Awww Mandywilson

That's bound to be a big worry for you but the beauty of having a BCN they can sort you an appointment PDQ.

'Other' people don't understand & say that most annoying of phrases 'You'll Be Fine' 😱 I told someone l know she should offer her skills to the NHS to save them all that money on Scans if she knew who was going to be fine!

If you need to chat remember we're all here & there's always someone about.

Take Care

Big Hugs πŸ’

Mrs N πŸ’…πŸΌ

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Thank you .. I talk to my husband but not said anything to my children .. Even though they are old enough 48' 40 & 39 .. All girls .. I don't want them worried unless there is need .. And then I will face it . 😘

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Maggie18

Thinking and praying for you and remember we have amazing cancer treatment in uk X I

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Mandywilson in reply to Maggie18

Thank you .. And yes we are lucky .. I know I can ring and see someone in days xx

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Debs1962

I know you must be worried, I think if we find anything on us we automatically think the worse after what we have had. Whatever happens you will deal with it, we have to for the sake of our families and us!

I remember reading a book by Jane Plant who had breast cancer a number of times, she beat it and lived well into her seventies from having it at an early age in her 40s, I remember she had a swelling near her neck, she advocated a no diary diet and had lapsed from that, when she was strict with her diet again, the swelling went down in weeks, surprising the doctors, it maybe a load of bollocks! But just for my peace of mind and there is some evidence about diet, I don't eat meat and diary now, it may or may not help but mentally it helps me to know I am doing something, if you know what I mean, I feel good on it, and suffer very little side effects from drugs I take.

I hope next Thursday the results are all ok for you, keep talking to people as I think that helps xxx

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Mandywilson in reply to Debs1962

Thank you for that .. I have cut out certain things don't have milk .. I have rice milk and have cut down on red meat .. Eat more fish and chicken ..I no longer drink tea or coffee , just green tea . So I will try and cut out more ! X it's good to hear of women who survive .... πŸ’ž We will cope with whatever it is ... X

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GinaD19 in reply to Mandywilson

I have not totally cut out dairy products but here in Spain we have 0% 0% yoghurts - no fat and no sugar - they are light and delicious. Do you take calcium and vit D supplements? I only drink redbush tea (rooibos) with no milk. The one I drink has vanilla in it too and is very nice. Xx

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Mandywilson in reply to GinaD19

I am prescribed calcium .. One morning & one at night , due to the medication I take which could lead to brittle bones .. I only have natural yogurt .. I love it with fruit or on my muesli .. Spain .. How lovely ...😍

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Debs1962 in reply to Mandywilson

I buy soya spread or sunflower spread, it is non diary, I only eat chicken occasionally and organic, I eat fish, never eat red meat, you can buy non diary cream and yoghurts, I do take calcium and vitamin D for my bones daily.

I do think diary yields have been massively increased over the last 30 years, by pumping hormones in the cows, which isn't good! When you consider a cow produces milk for its young, which is made for the calf to grow, so has loads of growth hormones in it already, as far as I am concerned milk is for babies not grown humans.

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Lorraineam

Hopefully it is nothing nasty, and you have got an appointment fairly quickly. Easier said than done I know, but try not to worry until you know what you are dealing with. xxx

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Mandywilson in reply to Lorraineam

Thank you ... And yes it's a great team at the hospital .. They have what they call a "one stop" appointment when you have been discharged .. You are seen really soon ..within days ..you have a scan on the day and results .. So hopefully will be sorted . X

Good luck with your appointment. I'll say a wee prayer for you because I believe the more good thoughts being sent your way the better. Huge hugs, jackie x

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Thank you .. I also believe in positive thinking .. I tell myself. ..you have coped one you can do it again ! .. So breath .. ,! Xx

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GinaD19

Hi Mandy, it's normal to be worried after what you have already been through. I was diagnosed in February 2012, have had two mastectomies (one by choice) and chemo but not radio. You think "that's it" but it's always there at the back of your mind. I think Lainey66's advice is great. Try not to worry, I know, easily said but not so easy to do. Worrying won't make whatever is there go away, it will just wear you out. You'll soon know and you will need your strength to cope if it's not good news. But...you beat it once and you can beat it again. Sending you healing thoughts. Please let us know how you get on. Xx

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Mandywilson in reply to GinaD19

Thank you ...true we will always worry .. Last time I asked the oncologist that seeing it had spread to all but one of my lymph nodes would it come back and he said yes !! Perhaps I shouldn't have asked. πŸ™„πŸ˜‚.. So I told my husband that I couldn't go through all that treatment again ... But nearly 7 years down the line I have a different view .. I would fight for every extra day x

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GinaD19

Go girl! I have said the same of chemo, that I would never have it again but if I had to have it again, of course I would. I love life and will not give it up without a fight. I'm keeping everything crossed for you. Xx

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Mandywilson in reply to GinaD19

I actually just made myself laugh ! I thought...Now then it wouldn't be as bad .. Al least there would be no mastectomy that's already been done .. πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚

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Nixh

I don't post often but am sending positive thoughts to you too Mandy πŸ’•Xx

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Mandywilson in reply to Nixh

Thank you xxπŸ’–

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NickAl

What a story and what an amazing lady. It takes courage to talk about breast cancer and everything associated with it. I really hope you are ok and able to recover and be well to enjoy what sounds to be a loving and caring family. I am new to this site and have found everyone so caring and supportive. Always good to have a "moan" to someone who understands and can empathise. The next week until your appointment I am sure will drag with the worry. I hope all goes well and keep us posted. Alison xx

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Mandywilson in reply to NickAl

Thank you .. Cancer is the journey we are on .. Even after the all clear for me I am still in a journey .. One that makes me grateful for who is in my life ... People I know & love and people I don't know ... We never stop worrying ... I will try and fill my week ... Already been knitting for the little charities I support..Angel & prem babies .and . Knitted Rainbow elephants for a little girl who died at 11 πŸ˜”. And baking !!! πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚

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Wakka

Big love hope all is ok. πŸ’œπŸ’œ

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Mandywilson in reply to Wakka

Thank you xxx

Hi Mandywilson

Just thinking about you πŸ’•

I know you're at your appointment right now, so sending many, many positive thoughts. πŸ€

Let us know how you get on.

Much Love

Angela (Mrs N)

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Hi Angela .. Good news , went for a scan . The woman wasn't happy about my neck , so sent for a consultant , who also wasn't sure as she said necks were not here area ( well it was a breast clinic ) so she also sent for another consultant !! He spent a good 15 mins on my neck , turns out I have a nodual on my thyroid and a possible goitre , they are now deciding if to remove my thyroid or not ... But happy days .. The Presecco will be out tonight xx thank you so much for your concern xxx

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πŸ₯‚πŸΎπŸ₯‚ Sounds like a plan!

I'm so glad it's not anything sinister, what's a thyroid issue when you've been through what you have! At least your girls weren't worried about it all! So pleased Mandy! Cheers! πŸ₯‚πŸ₯‚

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No .. But when I told them I got told off πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚ and thank you for you thoughts xxx

You can carry your own concerns but having the kids worry about you is another thing, isn't it. I didn't even tell my husband until the night before that l had an appointment as l couldn't have bared to watch him worry until we knew for sure.

One of my boys lives & works in France so l had to FaceTime him & my daughter in law, so that wasn't easy, but we manage don't we!

I hope they can sort your thyroid issue out & you don't need surgery.

Best Wishes Mandy πŸ’

Angela πŸ₯‚

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I am better sorting my brain out before I tell others, my poor husband said he was nearly physically sick when I was so long having the scan , bless him ..

It must have been difficult for you ..not being able to be physically with your son .πŸ˜”

But for me .. At the moment .... onwards & upwards , what will be will be , and i will deal with it when it happens .. I have up to now ... XXXX

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