4 years ago when I was 21 I had an abortion. I have never really spoke about it or thought that it had effected me because I don`t want children I never have wanted them. When I found out I was pregnant it was to my ex boyfriend and that wasn`t a great situation. I originally wanted to keep it because I never believed in abortions before then. I had no support from my ex during this time. I remember sitting about to take the pill to start the abortion and I was crying so much. The nurse was lovely but I needed him there to tell me it was right, not because I loved him but because he was the other half of the baby. I went through the abortion the next day after being rushed in due to problems and I was with a friend but she was useless. My mum ended up coming and my "friend" left. I was happy my mum was there but the pain I went through and what I saw I will never forget.
I don`t regret having the abortion and I think if that's what you want and you know its right for you then you should get one but I don`t think your decisions should be decided by someone else. I was called every name under the sun and called a liar when I found out I was pregnant it was horrible. After it was all over I ended up in hospital twice because I started to bleed out because of an undiagnosed blood condition but that abortion could of killed me.
Maybe I`m just totally hormonal just now because I know its nearly 4 years exactly since I had it but I can`t help but think what my life would of been otherwise. Did I make the right choice? I think I did but what if I didn't and what if I do go to hell because of it. Sorry for ranting on it`s just I've never spoke about it really before.