Lack of enthusiasm

[BaronFrankenstein]

Hi

I havent posted for a bit as i havent felt like Ive had anything to day to be honest.

Physically i am feeling much better as I have carried on community cardio rehab exercise classes since doing the ones at the hospital.

I managed to do almost full hours on my last 4 day shifts, 40 hours of my usual 44. I felt a bit knackered couple of days after but it wasnt fatigue like i had before just normal tiredness after a busy set of shifts.

My folate levels are back to normal after my last blood test a couple of weeks ago as well.

Work is still being flexible with me for now which i am grateful for but Im finding I just cant seem to put the effort into it that I used to. Its like mentally ive switched off to it.

Id rather just do the regular everyday bread and butter tasks nowadays rather than doing faukt finding or tearing up floors to look for leaks or getting dirty looking for engine oil or coolant leaks or wiring faults.

I just dont feel into it anymore. I have been looking in self help books and online for possible ways i can somehow reinvigorate my interest and get motivated again but its proving hard.

I think its partly becuase once they see me as having recovered they will expect me to seriously ramp up my effort level, especially next year when my fellow tech is moving to another shift that is short of techs.

They will expect me to fill his boots, which I cant do becuase he is younger than me and has always run around at 200mph doing as much as he possibly can. Even before the heart attack i couldnt match him fot enthusiasm and energy.

You know i would like to be able to step up but If im not got my mojo for it anymore I dont see how I can at the moment the way im feeling.

[Lowerfield_no_more]

It's good to hear your general health has improved. However from what you have said in earlier posts I thought you were looking for another job, elsewhere. If my employment experience is anything to go by you do need to change from time to time, to refresh yourself and sustain your interest in going out to work, which would otherwise pull you down, especially if the enjoyment has gone. However you might be finding it difficult to perhaps reconcile taking a job which is less demanding but comes with less pay, or maybe there is just nothing out there for you to match your skills. But whether and how you switch is unfortunately a very personal decision, and includes some who may even be fit and healthy, especially when they move to the later years in their working lives. I hope things improve for you

[BaronFrankenstein in reply to Lowerfield_no_more]

Thanks for your reply. I am still looking for an alternative job outside of where I am but im just trying to keep going in this one until i can find the right job to go to. I had an interview for what looked quite a good job but at the interview it turned out it was worse shift patterns than im doing now, plus they expected you to be on call after midnight every 3rd weekend. Plus it was working on older and dirtier trains thatn what im on now which given their age could have remains of asbestos and other hazerdous dust and nasties in them.

I do try to go into work the first day back in a more positive and open frame of mind than when I left but after a couple of hours its ledt me and im counting the time til Im off again. Its a bit sad really as I used to get a kick out of what I did and satisfaction.

I was thinking again earlier that if I was asked what i liked best about my job now it would be the the pay, the 4 days off and the numbwr of holiday hours I get. Nothing about what im actually doing.

Im keeping looking but im even thinking do i want to do maintenence in a role outside of my industry even. The vast majority of jobs are 2 or 3 shift based with call out or an inordinate amount of travelling or working away. I did all that 25 years ago. Young mans game.

[Zipper73 in reply to BaronFrankenstein]

Hello, I think I'm in same boat as you. I too feel like my get up and go as got up and gone. Is it the beater blockers we're on or is it something else. I work as a greenkeeper/mechanic on a golf course which is quite a physical job but I'm on light duties only since I've been back. Just like you mentioned in your post, lack of enthusiasm, motivation, lost the mojo, I think it's time we both need to refresh and rekindle our enthusiasm.

Good luck and all the best in your search.

Jonny

[cometwatcher1927]

I’m ten weeks post op quad bypass

still have a few issues and not likely to return to work soon

Not started the cardio rehab yet

I can relate to lack of enthusiasm , since my oo I’ve lacked a mojo for much of anything - feel numb , stunned at times - my intersts / hobbies seem to lack the spark they did

Take forever to get going after a cat nap etc

unsure of the reason why

[BaronFrankenstein in reply to cometwatcher1927]

I promise you 9nce you start cardio rehab you will regain some of your interests and it also helps with your confidence, which i suppose is also tied in with having the drive to do things. I did the 8 weeks at the hospital but ive been doing the outside cardio classes through Derby County Community Trust twice a week since, when i can. Its a good social thing as well as i felt isolated for a long time after my heart attack.

Maybe its not a loss of interest as such but perhaps a refocusing on whats important and what is not.

With regards to my work i just think ive had enough of it and need a change. Ive written out a list of the things i want and dont want in a new career. Id love to ditch my current job tomorrow but i cant for practical reasons.

So what im doing is seeing if i an get on as many training courses as poasible and get whatever extra skills to add to my CV that i can.

I got a good book called Designing Your Life which isnt your usual hippy pie in the sky self help book. Nor is it the thickness of a doorstep which when youre looking for self help puts me off if ive got to trawl through pages of filler waffle theyve had to put in to meet their publishers cobtractual word count.

Its a logical and practical approach to assesing where you are in your life right now, determining what you are good at and want to do and how to create paths towards that.