Thank you to everyone previously who replied to my post about a small drink on my birthday.
Just wondering if anyone else feels as low as I do now after having a heart attack 2 months ago. I am awaiting counselling but honestly feel I wish I had died and not recovered. Pushing everyone away and wondering if I will ever feel like the old me before all this happened.
I find myself mourning 'the old me'. In my case it's not just the heart issues but quite a few other problems which limit my life dramatically. I would feel better, I think, if doctors would help a little more. That sounds like I'm a hypochondriac, but it's things like refusing me an xray on my back, and relying on an MRI scan from more than 3 years ago when symptoms are much worse.What gets me down is not only fighting the various problems but having to fight the doctors too.
Try to think exactly what it is that makes you feel like this, is it the problem, the results of the problem, other peoples' attitudes, try to be analytical.
Sorry you feel like this I hope you feel better soon.
Dear you
You are not alone with these feelings, try if you can to be strong and all will be explained to you during counselling , there are steps to being well again and that includes mentally.
You will be surprised just how common this suffering is { me included } but there is a massive light at the end of the tunnel for me now and hopefully soon for you.
Please take care, a little wallowing does no harm but you realise and are seeking help because it is more than that.
That is a massive step, well done.
Hey
I'm feeling like this as well the last couple of days, my first HA was 6 months ago then the most recent one 3 weeks ago.
I want to do all the things I used to do, work, run be a normal 20 something girl.
We will get through this, it might not seem like it at the moment but we will
V x
I’m so sorry you feel this bad. How frightening it can all be.
It is good you messaged here. Many members have experienced a bit of what you are going through, but probably in not quite the same way. Im sure we each do the journey differently.
You say you are pushing oeople away? Im guessing that means you have people near who are wanting to be closer and want to help you. Do try and give them a chance. Can you tell them just how you feel?
One thing that really helped me was to be sure to take one very small step each day. Something to convinve me I could get better.
There is a good life to be had after such a scary time. You’ll get there!
I had an out of the blue massive heart attack, cardiac arrest and stent July 29th 2021. I’ve posted in the past about the roller coaster it puts you on and how I was so frustrated at not being ‘me’. Not being able to do what I used to.
Like you I was 59yrs. I was very fit and had no risk factors. Cholesterol normal.
I know total shock for me too and now on 7 different tablets a day whereas I never really took any. It's hard pretending I am OK when everyone says I am looking ok
yes people do say how well you look. When that’s not how your feeling. And the tablet’s 🙈🙈🙈. I’ve got a system now but still can’t believe how many I take. I have 1 session once a fortnight putting all my pills in the 3 times a day, daily pill box things so I’m not giving attention all the time.
sorry more to come pressed wrong button 😂
There’s a new you inside urging to get out, different than before but just as good. It’s okay to find the new you. And you will do. Whilst on my roller coaster I had some counselling which definitely helped. Then as the heart attack left me with a few heart arrhythmia’s the EP recommended anti anxiety medication as I was having generalised anxiety and this can aggravate arrhythmia’s.
My kids bought me an Apple Watch just over a year ago which means I can look back at my fitness progress. It’s good to see how I’ve improved. I’ll never get back to what I used to do and I’ve now stopped trying. My aim is to keep a good level of fitness and enjoy life. I’ve finished work ( they ended my contract after 12 months sickness - on capability grounds. Which hurt at first but life is too short so iv embraced it), with the nhs after 38/39yrs.
My aim this spring is to walk up Moel ffammau, I used walk there often. Even though I swim 2 miles a week, do Pilates, go to well-being gym class, go to the gym, play badminton and other bits, I still struggle walking uphill and always take a good time to warm up.
There are positives, give yourself time find a positive book to write in, ( like a diary you write in it daily planning your positive aims, then at the end of the day you jot down your positive experience’s) my daughter got me one to help you see the positive things around you. Looking back you’ll see progress. It’s slower than I’d like but who cares.
Anyway after this waffle I’m off to the gym, then a well-being gym class as this afternoon is treat day - coffee and cake with my friend.
You can still live and be alive. You WILL get there. X
Many folk here know what it's like to feel so down. We're here to share eachother's difficult times as well as the successes.
hi. What you are going through is a normal reaction to trauma, not that it makes it any easier. I’m thinking of you. X
Feeling traumatised and frightened. 
Feeling tired and depressed
Feeling overwhelmed
Feeling cold and heat spots 
Feeling so scared
