38,cancer survivor and open heart surgery,this poem is my life x

[Tucks2410]

Hi everyone, hears a short story about me… I’ve had open heart surgery at 38years d due to chemo and radiation when I was 3, I’m really struggling with the physical strength I’ve lost…. This is my life so far in a poem, I hope it inspires at least one person to never give up x

Mum,

From the day I was born.

I did not know I would be the thorn,

in your side, And mum I’m sorry for all the tears that you cried.

You were there every day in that hospital, hoping for the impossible, but also knowing that this might not end well…..

mum this must of been hell.

I’m so sorry mum, also I love you dad.

I know often that I make you mad,

but deep down inside me all I wanted was the normal life I knew I could never have,

I even needed IVF to become a dad.

I always dreamt about being the “so called normal” but so far I’ve survived every challenge and now feel immortal.

The chemo was next and this nearly killed me.

but mum you were there all the way to try to shield me.

then in desperation I was treated by radiation, but guess what mum, u stood strong buy your station.

Days of no sleep, days of no rest, then along came my heart surgery complete with cardiac arrest.

At 37 I was still fighting, now facing my biggest operation.

Open heart surgery, why me ? Why all the suffering for all to see ?

I guess this was my final option to live or be free, I’m guessing being in pain is the now new for me.

Then I faced a new battle,

by going under the razor sharp scalpel, the surgeon cut me open like he was dividing an apple,

Yes I died, and yes I cried but deep down now I wish I never survived,

little did I know I would lose my wife, my Jo ,my future my entire life.

But I did have it done and now I’m hear, wishing my nightmares would just disappear,

So I’m sorry mum, I’m sorry dad, but most of all I’m sorry Jo for treating you so bad.

Dave.

[Pollypuss]

Lovely poem 👍

[Hidden]

You brought a tear to my eye, hope your life gets better from this moment on you are in my thoughts, take care

[080311]

Oh my goodness, I have the biggest lump in my throat.I wish you so much luck in your recovery. I had open heart surgery 5 years ago, you can come back and have a good life.

Sending you and your family very best wishes

Pauline

[meadfoot]

Beautiful. Hoping life treats you better than hitherto.

[jeanjeannie50]

Oh Dave, life can be so hard at times, as well you know. However, no matter how low we can sink, always remember we rise up again from the hurt and gloom. Happiness will be up ahead for us to enjoy and it will be yours again. You have gone through so much in your life, you are truly a star. Keep smiling my friend it will attract good things in your life.

Sending you a big healing hug.

Jean

[Identiy]

You are a strong man. Full respect.

[Wooodsie]

That's a heart wrenching (forgive the pun) story Tucks2410 and very brave of you to share it. I'm sorry to hear you lost Jo, I hope you don't keep blaming yourself, crass as it it, it really does take 2. I know, I've experienced that at least.

[Bishop1]

What a lovely tribute. Chin up and carry on. Real tear jecking. Have a Blessed Sunday x

[Coper10]

Tucks2410How amazing to be able to put your thoughts down in such a way. You are strong for getting through all you have done so far. I had OHS this year and am still coming to terms with it. I wish you all the very best 🤗

[Qualipop]

Very poignant . You've had a hard life but I also read a lot of self blame in that which is so wrong. You have nothing to blame yourself for. You didn't ask to be born, you didn't choose to have medical problems. I'm absolutely certain that, although your mum cried and worried about you, she never for one second blamed you nor did your wife.

[Handel]

That was beautiful Dave. Love and hugs. Jan xxx