I can’t believe I’m writing this just three weeks after I joined this forum and was full of positivity. I took screenshots and shared them with my partner and we were hopeful for a better quality of life for him.
I lost my love yesterday and I’m broken. All I can say is hold your loved ones close and cherish every single second. I wasn’t in the house with him at the time and the unbelievable pain I’m in ….I can’t describe. I hope he knows he was loved and didn’t suffer in pain.
I may not be able to reply or add more information yet as I’m struggling to process it all…but a huge thank you to everyone who took the time to reply to my last post. Enjoy the time with your loved ones and tell them all you love them just one extra time for me.
Thank you all so much for your kind words of support. I love my partner immensely and I know he knows that. What’s hard for me to accept is that his illness changed our lives and our relationship. We had so many tough times and so many arguments that I just wish I could turn back the time and change it all. We also had incredible moments of love and although it changed our relationship, it didn’t change our love. Just so many things left unsaid and so many things I wish I could change. I’m feeling immense guilt and sadness for all the things left unsaid and all the things I didn’t get to do and I pray that one day we are reunited so I can say it all. Sending love to everyone who is living through this illness with their loved ones. I know it’s so hard but I treasure the last two years we had since he became unwell, regardless of the tough times. Love to you all xxx