Met with my counselor I haven’t seen in weeks. We had been dealing with my anxiety prior to operation and finally had someone I could just tell about all the mystery things and everything that happened. He said I now have a new rule. I have a 15 minute worry Appointment in the day. To pick 15 minutes and carefully worry about the future things I cannot do anything about. Then I have to stop. Because I’m sure it’s not helping my repaired heart a bit.
The anxiety is very bad as I’m housebound still. I have a very small daily routine I can manage on my own and trying to not over do. I have to allow myself to heal. That is the problem.